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teration might be effected, espec. I was pleased, because it shewed ially in those who have enjoyed the degree of that, the reality of a religious education, in a very
which I never doubted,--your gradual and imperceptible man- concern for my best interests. file
Such persons are like a If I have since been so forty. man who, gliding down a stream, nate as to find a friend, I owe the removes from the dominions of favor to that Sovereign Good. one prince into those of another. ness which fixes the bounds of He knows not when he passed our habitation, and, in propor. the boundaries which divide the tion to the advantages we are en. two kingdoms; and is only con. trusted with, justly expects a scious of the change, by contras. commensurate improvement.' ting the objects around him with In a letter, of the same date, the scenes which he had recent. addressed to his father, he writes ly quitted.
in a language amiably descriptive He went to London in the of his respect, affection, and year 1807. Previously to his gratitude. going thither, he expresses, in a I should do injustice, he letter to a friend, his resolution says, 'to my own feelings, were to avail himself of the advantages I not to begin with expressing for improvement which his new my warmest thanks for the excel. situation would afford; but, he lent advice and kind wishes conadds, what is particularly mem- tained in my excellent father's orable, as descriptive of his own welcome epistle. I regard it future condition, Thus have as one of the greatest blessings to I fully unbosomed myself to you have had a pious education, and on the most important subject the instructions and prayers
of a of a temporal nature, which can parent for so long a period; and engage my attention.
How far now that I am, for the first time, success may smile on ‘my pros. separated, I feel more than ever * pects, is only known to the Sų. their valuc. Go on, my dear preme Disposer of events, who, Sir, to assist your child in this in the course of his providence, way. He needs it, and will thank often frustrates the schemes of you for it ; or, at least, should mortals, to shew more fully his he at any time be disposed to reownsovereignty and their depen. ject it, this circumstance ought dence.'
to excite him to suspect that he On his arrival in London, he is not what he should be — what was sensible of the numerous he would be. While, with joy snares to which he was exposed, and gratitude, he acknowledges as appears from a letter which
that divine goodness which has he wrote to his brother on that hitherto preserved him from vice, occasion :
he desires to rejoice with trem"With much pleasure,' says bling, remembering the precept he, “I reflect on the solicitude of the apostle, “ Let him that you expressed when we parted, thinketh he standeth, take heed that I could be introduced to such lest he fall.” company as would be a check to We find that his diligence in youthful levity, in a place so en. his new situation equalled the snaring and dangerous, I say, warmest resolutions which he had
expressed before leaving the and in causing me to drink of the country.
cup of affliction, has wise pur. • Conceive of me,' says he, in poses to answer. May the fruit a letter to one of his sisters, be to alienate from sin, wean 'from half past nine, or earlier in from inordinate attachments to the morning, till ten at night, the world, to render the Savior 80 engaged as only to be able to more precious, and Heaven more spend an hour at dinner; and, desirable.' in addition to this, having full As his disorder increased, a employment for study (the only medical gentleman, with a patertime) on my retiring to my lodg- nal kindness, took him under ings at night, and before break. his own roof, for the sake of fast.'
giving him that particular atten. His unwearied diligence and tion which he needed at this crit. superior talents, soon attracted ical period. His views and feel. the notice of men of the first emi. ings at this time are thus expres. nence in his profession. He sed, in a letter to his father :met with the most flattering en. 6 Here then let me pause for couragement from them, and had
a moment, and reflect on the mer. prospects of wealth and distinc.
cies which have accompanied this tion opening before him beyond afilictive dispensation. Far re. his highest expectation ;--but moved from those kind relations, the fervor of his miod exceed. whose tender sympathy and un. ed the strength of his constitu. wearied attention have hereto. tion. His unremitting appli, fore been experienced, in the cation occasioned a hemorrhage; midst of strangers, and not even which, though slight at first, was friend at hand (Mr.frequently repeated, and, after in the country) my situation apsome months, terminated fatal. peared really forlorn. Yet have 1y.* A letter, which our young these circumstances heightenedthe friend wrote at this period, in. claim of gratitude to that Being, dicates the pleasing state of his who has excited an interest in the mind.
bosom almost of strangers in my • The anxiety of friends on behalf. Nothing can exceed the such occasions,' says he, though kindness I have experienced from highly soothing and endearing, Mr. and Mrs. — In the former, is often painful to the sufferer, parental attention is united with insomuch as he sees himself the such a degree of professional cause of their sorrow, whose skill, as sets my mind, and should pleasures and cares are blended set yours, at perfect ease with his own. For my sake, that subject. In the latter, I therefore, as well as your own, see all the sensibilities of a moth. be not over-solicitous, my dear er (the character in wbich, she sister, about what concerns me. says, she wishes me to consider God knows what is best for us ; her) displayed. Excluded as I
am from all society, my situa. * It is surely a subject of the deepest tion would be somewhat dull, regret, that so many have fallen the un.
were not every means, consistent timely victims of an unrestrained ardor iu literary pursuits. Let others take
with safety, used to remove thete. warning by their lamented examples !
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thing could render one that it may be well founded !' comfortable under the absence The pleasing state of his mind, of my relations ; while the cir. expressed in this letter, is also cumstance of being under the mentioned by the worthy lady same roof with my doctor, whose with whom he resided. assistance in any emergency can
. Our dear friend,' says she, be so readily obtained, is partic. has often reminded me of this ularly favorable. Thus the cup consoling idea of Cow per's, I am called to drink, though bit. That those who are best fitted to ter, is sweetened with many a live in this world, are best prepleasant ingredient. Whether pared for the happiness of ano. the plans I had formed, the ac- ther. IIis mind was calm and complishment of which appeared composed in the most trying pe. within my reach, will be entire- riod of his illness ; and, though he ly frustrated, or only interrupt. was prohibited from speaking, I ed, is best known to the Supreme could not refuse to listen while Disposer of events. I desire to he was expressing a sweet testi. acquiesce in his will, whatever mony to the reality of religion. that may be. Certainly my He said, that his hopes rested on prospects were fair ;-the cloud the truths of the gospel, and that that intercepted my view he felt their support, and the dispersed;-my most sanguine most perfect resignation to the expectations
exceeded, divine will, as to the event of his and recent circumstances had in. illness. I lament that the low creased them ;--but, perhaps, I tone in which he spoke, and the had made this too much an idol. interest and agitation of the moMy heart was too much set on it; ment, have prevented me from and, without doubt, Infinite Wis. recalling many of the ideas which dom has seen fit to withdraw it he uttered, and which I have no from me, that I may be led to doubt but he intended that I trust more entirely on him. should treasure up for the conso. Happy will it be that I have lation of his friends ; but it is been visited with this aflliction, enough to know, that, at that if this end be answered by it! solemn period when the human You will be solicitous to know heart would not be tempted to what were my views in anticipa. disguise its real sentiments, death tion of that event, which certain- had no terrors for your beloved ly, at one period, I considered relative.' as not far distant. Sensible of The gentleman to whom he al. the treachery of the heart, and luded in one of his letters, as the the danger of self deception, it friend that he met with soon after was my prayer to God to give his arrival in London, gives the me a right judgment in so impor- same account of his resignation tant a matter. trust, my dear during this period of his illness; Sir, all is well; that I am pre- while, at the same time, he pays pared for any event ; that, hav. a tribute to the worth and amia. ing cast anchor within the veil, I bleness of his general character. have a hold which the terrors of The first half hour,' says he, death cannot shake ! Rejoice addressing his father,
that I with me in this hope, and pray spent with your son, after his ar
rival in town, excited my desire ing letter to his worthy minister, to cultivate his friendship; for I the Rev. John Salt ren, of Brid. thought that I perceived great in- port :telligence, united with goodness I know not, my dear Sir, and sweetness of disposition; and whether, in this exercise, the call what I anticipated I found,--an for prayer or thanksgiving be affectionate friend, and an excel. greater.
When I think on my lent companion. We were sel. late providential, and, as it seems dom long separated from each to me, almost miraculous escape* other when business did not pre- from a catastrophe which, had vent our meeting.
His ardor it happened in my debilitated in his profession was great. He state, would, according to hu. had, marked out the road ; and man probabilities, have proved the principal obstacles appeared directly, at least ultimately, fato have been removed, by his su. tal, I cannot but see cause for perior talents and perseverance, gratitude to that God who , in when he was arrested in his course such extremity, appeared for my by the hand of Omnipotence. help. This, and the favorable At this time he exhibited the pow. state of my health at present, er of the religion he professed. which evidently improves under Not a murmur escaped him. He the use of the means, encourage often mentioned it as a striking me to hope that there is mercy yet proof of the vanity and uncer. in store, and that the time may not tainty of terrestrial things ; but be far distant when I shall again with a spirit of christian forti. be permitted to acknowledge his tude, and a desire of cheerful re. goodness, even the goodness of the signation to the will of his heav. Lord in the land of the living. It enly Father.'
is this hope which will furnish Who can read, without emo- matter of supplication to athrone tion, these testimonies of his sub
Life can only be de. mission to the disposal of infinite sired, as it affords opportunity wisdom, especially when it is con. of usefulness here, or of preparsidered what high-raised hopes ation for happiness hereafter ; were blasted by his premature and if, in a protracted existence, illness !
I have to anticipate a life bur. The remaining part of this Me- densometo myself and my friends, moir will relate to his views and
my prayer would be, 'Lord, dispositions after he returned in. finish thy work, and cut it to the country,
About three' short in righteousness! Fit me months before his death, he grew for thy kingdom, and then take considerably worse ; but he en- me to it! Hence appears the joyed, during this period, with propriety of submission to the only a short interruption, a most divine will, even in our prayers, desirable serenity of mind : and,
lest their fulfilment prove a curse as he drew near to an eternal instead of a blessing. world, he was favored with more thing we cannot ask amiss, that lively anticipations of glory. the affliction may be sanctified ;
Soon after his return, a mcet, ing of prayer being proposed on
Aluding to some alarming symp
toms, which induced a full expectation of his account, he wrote the follow.
an immediate return of the hemorrhage.
and I feel its importance too some degree, of my friends who
of trial to the faith, is by no ed !-- and may the angel of the means favorable to an inquiry covenant mingle his incense with as to the foundation of our hopes; theirs, that their prayers may be which can best be' effected wben accepted before the throne of the mind is calm and uninfluence God!'
ed by bodily disease. Hence I During this meeting of his have repeatedly sought to ascer. friends, or on a similar occasion, tain the reality of that comfort he wrote the following memo.
which I seemed to feel at this aw. randum, which was found after ful period. Not content with his decease.
my own examination, I have en. "I cannot close the duties of deavored to compare my religthis evening, when my friends ious affections with those laid have a meeting for prayer on my down in an inestimable work of account, withont expressing, in President Edwards on the suba manner more distinctly than I ject, as evidences of a state of bave yet done, the state of my salvation. The result is, That religious feelings, under the afflic, though I have greatly to deplore tion which has so long tried me. the want of clearer testimony on
• It has often been a subject this head, particularly as to the of regret that I had not done this way in which the Lord first sooner, at least only by those brought me to himself, I dare communications which I have entertain a hope, that I have sometimes made to my friends. been led by the teachings of his After the attack, I had for a Spirit to see my danger and my considerable time no convenient remedy,—to choose the Lord opportunity for this ; and since for my portion, and to give my. I came down to the country the self up to him to be entirely at design has been delayed, from a his disposal !
his disposal! I have at times wish to take a more circumstantial felt a pleasure I cannot de. view of the subject, in the differ. scribe, in making this surrender ent stages of my disorder, than to him,-in pouring out my my health in general would pru. soul, as it were,
prayer before dently admit of; though, with him, and in telling him my deshame I speak it, there have sire to be wholly bis. Too tran. been seasons when at most I sient, alas ! have been the bliss. should have run no greater risk ful visions; and too often sucfrom the investigation than the ceeded by a degree of supineness fatigue of other studies or en. and languor hardly reconcilable gagements occasioned. Should with a christian life! My temlife be spared, I hope to devote per, under this affliction has the earliest opportunity to make been much too little regulated by this scrutiny. In the mean time, the Spirit of the meek and lowly the following paper is intended Jesus. This has been the cause as a memento for the use of my. of much grief to me, and, I trust, self, and for the satisfaction, in of unfeigned humiliation before