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Smitten friends should I complain, when my Savior suf. Are angels, sent on errands full of love; fered so much for me. For us they ianguish,and for us they die; Rarely does an instance occur,of a perAnd shall they languish, shall they die in son so much blessed with the light of vain 28

YOUNG. God's reconciled countenance, as she Miss Sally HURD, late the only sur- was, particularly near the close of her viving daughter of Dr. ISAAC Hurd of life; for her views appeared continually Concor), early made a public profession brightening. As her body decayed, her of religion, and became a member of the intellects were more invigorated; and church in that place. Placid serenity, she appeared to enjoy conetant commun. charity, and submission were character- ion with God. She said, that during her istics, which habitually beautified her life and sickness, she had experienced a life; and she ever displayed an uncom- gloom, which gloom she would not have mon degree of filial affection.

parted with for all this world. She was In the month of June last she question- asked, if she meant by that gloom, that un. ed her father respecting her sickness, certainty of future happiness, which made which was a gradual decline, saying, í her tear to die? 0, no; but a gloom, view this my important and last sick- which had a tendency to make my devo. ness; adding that for three years she tion more humble and sincere. had expected complaints of this kind Early in the morning of her last day, would soon terminate her life ; and with Nov. 29th, she expressed herself with the greatest composure said, God's will great energy, This day, this glorious be done!

day, I have long looked for. I have been About two months before her death, anticipating it ever since I was twelve she settled all herworldly affairs,saying she years old. Upon her asking her father, wished to have no earthly concerns inter- if he thought she could continue till rupt her devotion ; after which she was noon, he told her, he thought she might wholly devoted to God, declining seeing possibly until toward night. She with a any one, excepting her family connex- sigh replied, Oh! I was in hopesions, her minister, and watchers. She

I am sorry. I do wrong. It looks like was reserved in conversation, but treas- impatience. I desire to wait God's time. ured every thing, which led to the great About eleven o'clock, she with the end she had to accomplish. She observed to greatest ecstacy exclaimed, Oh, my a friend, I have been confined in this God! I love thee. I adore and bless chumber six months, during which time I thee. My dear Savior has plead for me: have enjoyed five of the happiest months, and all my sins are forgiven. I am sure I ever knew.

of it. On this dry, his glorious day, an. During the last three months of her gels will waft me to my dear Savior. He confinement," writes her father to a will present me to my God, who will refriend, “she suffered the most exquisite ceive me to endless bliss. About two, pain, Í ever knew in sickness of a chron- she, with a countenance animated with ic nature; but scarcely did we ever hear heavenly joy, again exclaimed, My God, a groan pass her lips. She appeared I love thee! I adore, I bless thee. My several times, as though she would soon Savior has plead for me. My sins are' depart. After her revival she thus ex- all forgiven, I am sure of it. Angels pressed herself, 0, my deur futher! I will zafi me to my Savior; my Savior hoped to have been with my heavenly Fa- present me to my God. Yes, I am sure of it, ther before this time.

But he thought Oh, what a glorious day will this be to me! otherwise ; therefore it is best. I desire Soon after this, exchanging with her to wait patiently his holy will.Through parents and brother the tenderest token the whole of her sickness her patience of affection, she again took leave of them;

If any thing like a and, about a quarter before three, in groan escaped her, she immediately broken accents breathing, Christ Jesus reproved herself by saying, I was receive me! died without a struggle or wrong I could have borne it. Why a groan, aged twenty-eight years.

TO CORRESPONDENTS. A Probationer for Eternity has our best wishes. His letter is serious and pertinent; but it would not comport with the rules, which we have prescribed to ourselves, to give it a place in this publication. It would do better for a private than for a public communication, A Sketch, &c. of Mrs. Sarah Gray shall appear in our next.

As we are very much disposeil to acquit Mr. Allen of conscious partiality in his selection of names for honorable mention, and as we have prescribed it to ourselves as an inviolable rule not to engage in any discussion of a political complexion ; agree ably to Mr. A.'s request, but withont any particular rejoinder, we subinit his remarkt on our review of his work to the judgment of the candid public.

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It appears that, after this, sinners, and such a belief of his when conversing with his friends interest in it, as was almost too he expressed some uneasy appre. much for him. He thought that hensions, as he could not date he could not have borne more. his conversion at any particolar

concerned that, in period, or trace that regular pro- consequence of being exceedinggress of the divine work on his ly nervous, he was prevented heart which some authors and from always discovering that ex. other Christians have described ; emplary patience and compo. and hence he was ready to fear sure, for which he had generally that his former hopes would be been so remarkable. This he found delusive. He said, that would frequently lament, as he he had ever been sensible of the thought it might have an appear. importance of religion ; but that, ance of tacit murmuring against when there is a considerable God, which grieved him exceed. knowledge of the truths of the ingly. gospel, it was difficult to distin. A few weeks previous to his guish between that and the work death, he said, That, on looking of the Spirit ; 'but,' he added, back on his past life, he wonder that, utterly disclaiming alled that his ardor had been di. hope on the ground of personal rected towards objects so commerit, we must all, as sippers, paratively trifting, and that his whether greater or less, be saved mind had not been more fixed

upin the same way, through the on the cause of Christ, the promo. righteousness of Christ. But, ting of which he now considered whatever uncertainty he might as the grand object of life. Headhavefelt on this occasion, at an. ded, that, if he felt a wish to live, other time he told his father, That it was that he might devote himhe had that day had such a view self more entirely to God, and of the love of Christ in dying for testify his love to that Savior VOL. II. New Series.

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who had shewn such love to could not have more firmly be. him. At the same time, he re- lieved it.' He then repeated, peated this verse of Dr. Dod. with peculiar animation, the fol. dridge :

lowing verse from Dr. Dod.

dridge : «'Tis to my Savior I would live, To him who for my ransom died ;

« On thy dear cross I fix mine eyes, Nor could untaintesi Eden give

Then raise them to thy seat, Such bliss as blossoms at his side.'

Till love dissolve my inmost soul

At my Redeemer's feet.' My views,' said he, upon the subject of redemption, are very "Such,' added he, has been ing different now from what they experience.' once were. I once thought too When his friends said that they much stress was laid on it by ma. had hoped it would have been ny; but now I find it to be the the will of God to lengthen his grand pillar of christianity. life, but that it would be selfish What a mercy it is,' he added, to detain him here with such hap" that all is done for us, and that piness in view, ‘Yes,' he replied, we have nothing to do but to I have no wish to live. Heaven accept of salvation ! When we is a glorious place ! My prayer are enabled to rely entirely on is, That I may possess, not mere. Christ, then it is that we taste ly a firm reliance, but a triumph. the comforts of religion.' ant hope in the prospect of death!

When some person had been —this, I trust, my heavenly Faspeaking of the blessing of ther will grant me! health, I do not think,' said On his being informed by his hc, a state of affliction the most father, that his medical attendants undesirable for a Christian. Farhad pronounced his case to be from it. I trust I shall ever hopeless, he expressed surprise ; have reason to bless God for this

but without any change of coun. affliction, and for all his myste. tenance. He said that, though rious dealings with me, by which he had, for several days, believ. he has brought me to a much ed himself to be in a very criti. greater knowledge of himself.

cal state, he had looked forward On its being suggested to him, to weeks, or, perhaps, months that it was a mercy he was not of longer life ; — but I have a in great pain, and still more that bright prospect,' he added, "behis mind was so supported, he yond the grave! and, though I said, 'Yes; but I have been feel myself a vile, unworthy sin. much distressed the past night ; ner, yet I trust that God has acyet I was enabled again to cast cepted me, through my blessed myself on my Savior ; and I Redeemer. I have felt the trust that he has accepted me. I sweet drawings of his Spirit, have given myself up to him be. and the assurances of his love. fore; and, I trust, he will not now Yes ; Jesus is mine, and I am forsake me. I have at times felt his! I know that he has loved my faith so strong, that I have me!-I regret that I have done thought that, if an angel from so little for him in life : and had Heaven had come to me, with hoped to be raised up, that I an assurance of my salvation, I might honor him by some emi.

nent services. I have no wish with a lively emotion, and par. to live but for this end,—that I ticularly the following verse : may glorify that God who has done so much for me.' He then

« Yes; thou hast lov'd this sinful worm,

Hast given thyself for me ; spoke again of the delightful Hast brought me from eternal death, view that he had of the love of Nail'd to the bloody tree.' the Savior in dying for him ; to which we have alluded in the He regretted that he had not former part of this narrative.

been earlier apprized of his situ. After supplicating the divine ation, as, he said, it had premercy,' said he,' with particular vented his enjoying the company importunity, going through the of his christian friends, and whole work of redemption and

many delightful seasons of com. applying it to myself, then it munion with God; that it had was that, in a most remarkable

led him to spend those hours manner,

I felt the Spirit bearing in attention to his health, which witness with my spirit, that I

should have been devoted to the was one of the children of God; service of his Redeemer; but and so overpowering was it, I bless God,” he added, "the great that I could not but weep for joy.

work is not now to be done! I Though I trust that, long before

can call God my Father, Christ I had yielded myself up to God, my Redeemer. I have often and had experienced at times his

thought of the last memorandum love shed abroad in my heart, in George's Diary, in which he yet it was not constant ;—but,

speaks of the love of the Savior since that time, I do not know

as expressive of my own feelings.” that I have entertained one doubt; He then quoted the following ex.

- I had to-day, and I trust that my Redeemer tract from it : will grant me his grace, to hold in the house of God, so clear a on to the end, He will never

view of the love of Christ in dybreak the bruised reed, nor

ing for sioners, that I could quench the smoking flax.' truly say with the apostle, “The

When one of his sisters said love of Christ constraineth me." that his frieuds only had reason

A few hours after, he conversfor

ed with his brother in the lan.. sorrow, he replied, 'And why you, my dear? Follow on, guage of joyful expectation. No

shall attain.' He then you

one,' says he, who has tasted took each of them by the hand,

of the joys of Heaven, would saying that this affliction had

wish to come back again to earth,' greatly endeared them all to him:

adopting, as expressive of his and expressed his earnest hope

own experience, these animated that they might all meet around

lines in Dr. Watts' Miscella.

nies : the throne, and join in praising Him who sits on the throne, and the Lamb for ever and ever.

Weak as my zeal is, yet my zeal is “There," said he, 'I shall meet

pure ;

It bears the trying furnace. Love divine my dear mother and brother, and Constrains me: I am thine. Incarnate all our relations, who are now

love in glory.' He then repeated the

Has seiz'd, and holds me in Almighty 280th Hymn of Dr. Doddridge, Here's my salvation, my eternal hopez

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Amidst the wreck of worlds and dying now moved in this chair, will
I am the Lord's, and he for ever mine!

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tomb. He then enlarged on the During the remainder of the superior happiness which the day, though he suffered much soal would experience when disfrom a fresh hemorrhage, he dis. missed from this state of infirmi. covered singular patience, notty, and repeated an expression uttering a murmur or complaint, similar to what he had before ut. but calmly acquiescing in the tered, that he had wished to hon. sovereign pleasure of God.

or God by some signal service Complaining one morning to in life; but if he choose,' he his friends that his communion added, to take me from this with God had, during the past state of pain and sickness, to night, been suspended, they en. serve him in perfection above, it deavored to comfort hím, by as. will be infinitely better, and I cribing it to the effect of his dis. am sure I shall not repine.' order. "Ah!' said he, do not He frequently spoke, in the

Is not that an evil to course of the day, in the same be lamented, which has occa. pleasing manner; but when he sioned my heavenly Father to awoke, about 11 at night, he withdraw the sensible assurances expressed, with perfect composof his love? Is not that an evil, ure and clearness, such emotions to remain without communion of joy for more than an hour, with my God ? —but added he, that he appeared to be like one "though he may

have withdrawn on the confines of glory; and it the full assurance of his love for is to be regretted, that the feel. a time, my Savior will return a. ings of his friends were so overgain! I know that he will re- powered, as to prevent their re. turn; and though weeping may taining his rapturous expressions. endure for a night, joy will come No part of his dying testimony in the morning. Then, lifting was more impressive. His apup his eyes, he said, "O, my peals to Heaven, as a test of his heavenly Father! can such an past experience, were particu. unworthy sinner as I, hope for larly solemn and affecting. In thy favor? Never, but for thy the full and triumphant hope of unchangeable love !--never, but future blessedness, he repeated, for thy boundless

mercy ! with a small alteration, the folThough our feelings vary, thou lowing verses from a hymn of Dr. changest not ! Thou wilt never Doddridge leave those who have felt so much of thy gracious presence ! "Jesus, my soul's eternal theme, Throughout this day he continued

My transport and my trust;

Jewels to thee are gaudy toys, in a very devotional temper; and And gold is sordid dust. finding that it was the Sabbath, he said, “If this be my last Sab.

I'll speak the honors of thy name bath on earth, I shall spend an

With my last lab'ring breath ;

Then,speechless,clasp thee in my arms, eternal Sabbath in leaven.' The Antidote of death.' When his father and sister were moving the bed-chair for him, he While uttering these words, he said, These bones, which are clasped his hands and raised his

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