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my sorrows: but many sorrows shall be to the wicked,' and so I found it, to my cost. I got worse every day, until I broke the laws of my country; for which I am now most justly suffering. When I was at the 'Justitia' hulk, I thank God, I thought on my ways, and took to reading the Scriptures,—but am not able to say I was turned to the Lord, and on him relied; but since I have been on board this ship, I bless God that your kind instruction has been very useful to me. I believe, through grace, my soul is saved. I desire to come to Jesus as a guilty sinner; and I trust I have found peace in him. A little book you lent me, called The Two Apprentices,' was very much blessed to me. I have no other hope but in the finished work of Christ. I wish to love and serve him, and may I enjoy his smile for ever. .

(Signed) " T. C."


My parents were pious; they did their duty to me as parents ought to do to a son; they gave me a simple education, and instructed me in the paths of peace. My father made it his duty to see that I always attended Divine worship, likewise school: but alas! when I grew up, I began to turn my back on my parents and their instructions.

“ I was sent to a good master, a brassfounder, I stopped with him about a year; but Edinburgh, sir, you are aware, is a city where there are many temptations. I became acquainted with bad boys, left my trade, and turned a deaf ear to the many supplications


of my dear parents. At last I left the peaceful roof that sheltered me from the storm, and went to sea. But I was always changeable : I left my ship after a voyage out to America, and came home once more to my parents. I saw that I had been wrong, and I complied with the wishes of my father; but, oh, sir, I am afraid to tell you !—Satan is always ready to tempt us,-I again fell into the snares of evil company. My friends disowned me; I became an outcast and a vagabond on the face of the earth. Tired of such a life, I was resolved to leave my country; and so committed the crime for which I am exiled.

“Even after I knew my doom, I never once reflected on my state; I did not think on the God I had so often offended, till I came under your charge. The constant reading of the Scriptures, together with your kind instruction, brought me to think of my state. I considered I had a soul to save, and that it would be saved if I believed on Jesus. But when the Almighty visited us in his mercy with that thunderbolt, and also that sea we shipped, I then thought more of my situation. Ever since those visitations, my conscience tells me I am a vile wretch, unfit to do anything for myself; but must come to the Lamb of God, who taketh away the sin of the world. I hope God will give me grace to come to him, and never to depart from him.

“Sir, I have to return my sincere thanks for your kind instruction, and likewise for the Bible you were pleased to give me. ... .. I will ever pray to God,

to direct my steps never to go out of the narrow path that leadeth to life.

(Signed) “John M'D—"

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Between two and three o'clock on the morning of Dec. 30, I awoke in great suffering, and ascertained that the most threatening inflammation surrounded my wound, which began to ascend towards the trunk. My danger could not be concealed; a fatal termination in such cases is a common occurrence, and I was warranted to regard myself as probably now drawing near to the end of my earthly pilgrimage. The circumstances in which I was placed in the “ Earl Grey,' were unprecedented in my experience; but I do not see that any good end could be answered by my entering into detail. It is, however, necessary to the unity of my narrative to state, that unjustifiable and pernicious interference with my scheme of management, so as to debar my servant and head of my hospital from all personal communication with me, through the apprehensions of an officer who ought to have cordially co-operated with me, left me no alternative but to direct my removal to my hospital, and to make, at the proper time, such faithful representations to the higher powers, as might prevent, at any future period, such injuries from being inflicted on the public service. The required measures to prevent the recurrence of the evil have been adopted. Here I received, night and day, the unwearied and devoted attention of the prisoners; and nothing could

If any

exceed the zeal, the good feeling, and the sleepless
watchfulness with which they waited upon me. They
seemed to identify my life with their own.
thing could be more gratifying than their kindness and
sympathy towards me personally, it was their manly,
consistent, and admirable behaviour, without, to my
knowledge, one single exception. The most fervent
prayers were, I believe with tears, offered


my life and restoration to health, and to my post amongst my now afflicted people. Such of them as I desired to read the Scriptures to me, came to my bedside, and their conversation and prayers were most edifying and soothing. Nothing could appear more opposite to the supposed character of a convict ship, than was the general aspect of the “Earl Grey," as respects the spirit and conduct of the prisoners. I felt myself surrounded by people who feared and loved God, and were influenced by a Christian spirit; and their treatment of me was like that of the oldest, most faithful, and devoted friends.

The power of the gospel of Christ


these men's hearts and minds was most manifest, and afforded matter of earnest thanksgiving.

The petty-officers and schoolmasters continued to carry on the duty in my absence, and the routine was as regularly and efficiently conducted as if I had been mingling as usual amongst them.

Jan. 1st, 1843, was the Lord's-day.

After sermon, I was able to say a few words to the people, with reference to the fearful language implied in the refusal of any of them to return to

God by the believing reception of Christ : It is this : “I have resolved that there shall never be joy in the presence of the angels of God over my conversion! I have purposed that Jesus shall never see in me the fruit of the sore travail of his soul! It is

my resolution that the ranks of Satan shall never be thinned by my going over to Immanuel, and submitting to his authority! My utmost I will do to frustrate his grace, and resist his Spirit! It is my purpose that the Divine Saviour, who died upon the cross to make atonement for the sins of the world, shall never present me to the Father with exceeding joy! You tell me of the finished righteousness. of Christ; that God is just in justifying even the most ungodly who avail themselves of that righteousness; that he is beseeching me to be reconciled to him, and that he is long-suffering to us-ward, not willing that any of us should perish, but that we all should come to repentance; but I have resolved to adhere to my sins, to retain my guilt,—to abide by Satan, and to perish with him for ever!—and, more than this, I purpose that my example and influence shall continue to be such as are calculated to induce the greatest possible number of my fellow-transgressors to put Christianity away from them also, and with me to endure the torments of a guilty conscience, and of felt and chosen depravity, through the ceaseless ages of eternity!” Such is the appalling language of the man who perseveres in the rejection of Christ!

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