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the life and death of Jesus Christ;-but "the power of God unto salvation," to as many as follow its dictates. In it, I feel satisfaction with some few of the days of my life, in years that are past and gone. In it, I feel unity with those who have "wandered about in sheep-skins, and in goat-skins, and in dens and caves of the earth, of whom the world was not worthy; but who, through faith, obtained a good report." In it, I feel unity with the spirits of just men made perfect.

I have had a glimpse of that state of humble, lowly-mindedness into which, the spirit of Christ, if faithfully eyed, and followed in all its secret movings, would lead its followers; but I dont know that I can find language sufficient to convey an idea of it to others, unless it be to those who have had some such prospect. It has caused me to believe that many, even of the well concerned amongst us, fall far short of the standard which shall be held up to view by the virgin daughter of Zion, when she shall put on her beautiful garments, and the meek, humble, lowly Lamb come to rule and reign in all things, inwardly and outwardly.

Among the various dispensations of Divine goodness, I have been in a state, wherein I have experienced the comfortable enjoyment of Divine love, even in my sleep; and have known (as it were) the angels guarding me and ministering to me: and when I have awaked, my mind hath been full of heavenly sweetness, and I have seen the manna lying thick about the tent-door, and nothing to do but arise, gather, and eat: So that when I have not spent

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it in "riotous living," I have had a sufficiency to live on through the day. But, as it pleaseth the Lord to vary his dispensations to his people, even to the faithful, so I have had, at other times, to experience a warfare in the night season; being pressed with hunger, want, and penury: and in the morning I have awaked, poor, empty, and naked, having nothing to eat, until I had laboured hard for it."

It appears from the testimony of his friends, as well as from the short account he has left of his religious engagements, both at home and abroad, that he was eminently qualified for usefulness as a minister in the church. For the important service of visiting families, he was, peculiarly gifted; and many, yet living, will long remember his labours in this way. He was remarkable for the affectionate notice he took of the children and young people, in families he visited, and where he was entertained in his travels. By his easy demeanour, and kind attentions to such, he won their affections, and opened the way for the communication of instruction, which, like seed on the good ground prepared to receive it, brought forth fruit after its kind, leaving memorials of affection not easily forgotten.

On the 10th of the 5th month, 1784, having obtained a certificate of the unity and approbation of his monthly meeting, he set out on a religions visit to Friends and others, as far south as Carolina. Of a part of this journey, he has left some account in writing; which, though very brief and not continued through, is nevertheless interesting and instructive; evincing, not only great dedication to Divine requirings, but a very heavenly state of mind. VOL. VI.-2

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On one occasion, he says, "As we rode along this morning, between day-break and sunrise, through a beautiful valley-the hills on each side, clothed with verdure, the little birds, in performing the đuties assigned them by the wise Disposer of all things, warbling their notes to their Maker's praise,—a sweet sense of my being in the way of performing the duty allotted me by Him, attended my mind, and melted my heart into tenderness. May I never forget the love and mercy of a gracious God!" On another occasion, after giving up to an intimation of duty to have a religious sitting in a family, he says, "I had to address them in the language of Christ to Nathaniel, 'Behold an Israelite, indeed, in whom is no guile;'-it was a season, I hope, not soon to be forgotten by some, nor ever by me. During the remaining part of the afternoon and evening, I was in a state of feeling, which I believed to be a foretaste of the sweetness and peace of the Paradise of God. As we rode along in the evening, I had often to remember a portion of scripture in the Book of Isaiah, "The mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands for joy.' I remember to have enjoyed nearly the same condition, once or twice before, when about nineteen or twenty years of age, wherein I apprehended I sensibly felt and saw all nature singing forth its Maker's praise. I write these things in commemoration of the Lord's condescending love and mercy to me a poor worm. May I never forget his many favours."

In the latter part of the year 1785, he laid before his monthly meeting a prospect, which had been opened to his mind some months before, of paying

a religious visit to Friends, eastward, particularly in New England. In the 2d month, 1786, believing the time to set out was near at hand, he requested a certificate; which being granted, he left home on the 17th of the 4th month following, in company with Peter Yarnall.

In this journey, he visited the meetings of Friends on the way, through the States of Pennsylvania, Delaware, and New Jersey;-attended those in the city of New York, and on Long Island, and thence to Rhode Island and Massachusetts. He accompanied Peter Yarnall as far as Salem and Lynn; but the chief field of his religious labour lay in Rhode Island. ¿Leaving Peter at Lynn, he returned to Providence, and went from thence to Newport, where he continued a religious visit to the families at that place, having before had sittings with a considerable number of them, in company with Peter Yarnall, and others.

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During his stay in Newport, he was brought into deep trial and suffering, on account of the severe illness of his wife, and one of their children; a statement of which he had received, by letter, during the said visit to the families there. After close consideration of the case, he felt easy to return homeward; which he did, and arrived at New York on the 12th of the 8th month. But, tarrying here a short time, his mind became easy respecting his family, believing the sick were on the recovery, which was soon confirmed by letter; and in pure dedication to the Divine will, though much in the cross to his own inclination, he returned to New England, where, labouring faithfully, he was favoured to conclude his service, and return home in peace.

He made several religious visits afterwards to Friends in divers places within the States of Pennsylvania and Delaware; in all which, his dedication to the cause of Truth,-his steady adherence to manifested duty, the singleness of his eye to the pointings of Divine wisdom, and the consequent light and power that accompanied his ministry, are apparent from the brief accounts he has left behind him.

We now come toward the conclusion of his life, and shall close this short memoir with some account of the state of his mind, during his illness, and at his death.

His constitution was marked by delicacy from earIy life, and probably the nature of his business was unfavourable to his health. In the 9th month, 1789, he attended the Yearly Meeting held at Philadelphia; and before reaching home was seized with a disease then prevailing, called the influenza; which terminated in a confirmed pulmonary consumption. His health gradually declined, until the 12th month following; after which he was mostly confined to his chamber. During the forepart of his illness, the sensible enjoyment of the Divine presence was much withheld from him; under which trying dispensation, he evidenced great patience, expressing a desire that he might wait in true resignation to know the Lord's will, in thus hiding from him the light of his glorious countenance. But God who is rich in mercy to his dependent children, did not leave him long in this tried state, but breaking forth, as a clear sun from behind the dark clouds, shone brightly upon him, to his great consolation and joy-in which his redeemed soul was enabled to magnify and praise the

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