the log on which he laid him yet lying there, with no more virtue in it, than any other log.

On first-day, attended Shrewsbury meeting. Our worthy friend Robert Willis was there, and appeared lively in testimony: but we were silent. After an opportunity in Richard Lawrence's family, he accompanied us to Squan, where we lodged at Thomas Tilton's; and next day attended a meeting appointed for us at Squan, in which we came off pretty well, though it was rather a low time. In the evening, we rode to the sea-shore. There was something very awful in the appearance; it being the first time I had ever seen the ocean.

On third-day, we went to Squankum, proposing to attend their week-day meeting, next-day, Friends informed us, they had heard we were to have been here, on second-day; and notice had been spread, and a number collected. This was some surprise to us at first, but in a few hours my mind was composed, under a solemn quiet. Fourth-day, attended their meeting at Squankum,-a considerable number were collected, whose minds, I thought, were very much outward. Afterwards I stood up with a large opening, as I thought, and had spoken but a few words, when all was closed up, and I sat down. After which, Peter fared much in the same manner; and so we broke up the meeting, and came away,

in distress.

We attended Shrewsbury meeting again, on fifthday, but were silent; though a pretty comfortable meeting. After dining at Joseph Wardell's, we had an opportunity in the family. His brother's wife was there, being low in her mind, on account of her husband's being gone to England, together with their VOL. VI. 4

being reduced from affluent, to necessitous circum stances, and also some bodily indisposition. We had a little to hand forth, rather by way of encouragement, and took our leave of them. We had also a tender opportunity in the family of Richard Lawrence, after which, parting with them in much affection, we rode to Edmund Williams's and lodged. Next day went to Rahway, 28 miles, and the day following to New York, where, at Henry Haydock's, we met with John Townsend, David Sands and John Cox.

On first-day, the 14th, attended morning and afternoon, meetings in New York; to me a day of suffering. Next day, as John Townsend had appointed several meetings on Long Island, and Peter inclined to attend them, we set forward, in compa-. ny with him and David Sands, with divers other friends, and were at a poor little meeting at Newtown. After which, rode to John Bowne's, at Flushing, where next day we attended meeting, but it is much decreased in numbers, from what it formerly was. Fourth-day, were at Westbury meeting. I had had a poor, distressing time since I came on the Island, and this evening was favoured to see that I had been rather too talkative, and not inward enough. Being now favoured to get to Jerusalem, a quiet habitation, I felt the desire of hearing, or being heard, much mortified. Next day, attended Cowneck meeting. After which J. Townsend and companion went to Matinicock, but Peter and I returned to Joseph Pearsall's, where we lodged.

Feeling much distressed this afternoon, I believe I was too impatient under it; which rather increas

ed, than relieved my suffering. I saw it to be best, not to be as the scribes and Pharisees, who, when they fast, disfigure the face, appearing unto men to fast,—but rather, to put on a cheerful countenance, and keep as much in an innocent freedom as we can: at the same time, eying the Guide, lest we get into a reserved silence; which, not being under the cross, has no more religion in it, than empty chat. May I ever be patient under suffering, and wait for the arising of Truth. I have sometimes thought, I have had more dross in my nature, than some others; or else, I have not so fully submitted to the refining fire in its first. manifestations in the heart.

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Sixth-day, I would rather have gone elsewhere, than to meeting; but Peter inclining to go, I went with him to Matinicock, where we had a favoured season, under the testimony of John Townsend. After which, Peter and I went home with Silas and Phebe Downing; where we spent a comfortable evening with these dear friends,—my mind being humble, and much in the state of a little child. Next day, a poor meeting, at Oyster-Bay, and on firstday, at Westbury again. Lodged at Fry Willis's. Second-day, we were all at a meeting at Jerusalem, mostly composed of other societies: from which, I went away tolerably easy, though somewhat confused, for want of patiently attending to the Guide while speaking: which is generally the case, when zeal goes faster than knowledge. In the evening, Peter and I rode to Socotauk, and lodged at Jacob Willetts.

Third-day morning, 23d, walked to see Joseph Eudal, and family, whose wife is a member of society. In a little opportunity of silent waiting, we

were favoured with a loving invitation to the family, especially the youth, to give up, whilst they were reasoned with, as Felix was, lest the day pass, and they be not gathered. After which, we returned to a meeting, appointed to be held at Jacob Willetts's. It being a wet day, the meeting was small, and though a season of weakness, yet we were favoured to leave it with an easy mind. We dined at Thomas Eudal's, where we met with a kind reception, though not members of our Society. After dinner, had a seasonable opportunity in the family, in which we were sensible that the same which opened the heart of Lydia, was still near; and being engaged in prayer for the prosperity of the good seed, sown in the heart, we took leave of them and rode to Henry Whitson, Jr's.

This evening, on looking over the transactions of the day, I felt peace in having done my duty, and no more; though in several instances, hardly willingly. I find the will of man is generally in-. clined the wrong way: unwilling, when any thing is pointed out by the Master; but when nothing is pointed out, then willing to be doing. Now, I felt. a renewed desire, that my own will might be slain, and that I might become more and more will-less: which I saw must be the case before we can advance forward.

. On fourth-day, attended Bethpage meeting, which was long held in silence, till the people had given over the expectation of hearing preaching, when they were directed to attend to, and put in practice what they had already heard; lest they get into the condition of the vineyard, concerning which it was said, "I will command the clouds, that they rain

no rain upon it." Next day, we were again at Matinicock meeting, where we met with John Townsend, John Storer and John Cox.

Sixth-day, attended the Yearly Meeting of ministers and elders at Westbury. This evening and next morning, I felt my mind inward and watchful, dwelling under my own vine. Attended the general meeting, and after it, the meeting for discipline; wherein my mind was opened to view the progress of the soul, in rebuilding the walls, which had been broken down;-or regaining that paradise, which had been lost;-working the six days, or, fighting under the banner of Him, who, when the enemy comes in like a flood, lifts up a standard against bim. By working faithfully during the season for labour, the soul is, at length, favoured with a sabbath of rest; which is to be enjoyed, and passed through, but no rest taken up after the sabbath is ended; for the enemy will come in, on another quarter, and perhaps, be unsuspected. Here must be a renewal of entering into the warfare, and building the wall. How some are mistaken here, who have apprehended the work done, and so have taken up their rest; but are again taken captive, while the enemy is undiscerned! Others, who are more watchful, see him, and the necessity of again engaging in the warfare. Some of these, are ready, at times, to cry out, that they are forsaken; and "Oh! that it were with me, as in months that are past; as in the days when God preserved me." Here are new trials: but as these are favoured to keep in the patience, and under the heavenly banner,-the warfare, or rebuilding of the wall goes forward; till, at length, these are again favoured with a sabbath of