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the poor woman could not refrain from tears, at a forgery so remote from the truth.

THEY then sent for me, and told me, “ I had "done base things in the last month." I asked what things? They would not tell me. I said then, "that I would suffer as long and as much as it "should please GOD; that this affair was begun "on forgeries against me, and so continued. "That GOD was witness of every thing." The Doctor told me, to take GOD for a witness in such a thing was a crime. I replied, "Nothing "in the world could hinder me from having re"course to GoD." I then retired, and was shut up more closely than at first: And because there was no key, they fastened the chamber door with. a piece of wood, or bar across it. I had an inte rior joy at this new humiliation. Oh what pleasure, my supreme Love, to be for thee in the most abject condition!

[HERE she continues to relate the severity of her treatment; how she was shut up in that very small chamber in the month of July, till she was absolutely at the point of death, being thrown into a violent fever, and almost stifled with the closeness of the place, having a defluction and sore throat, before she was permitted to have any assistance.]

IN the time of the antient law there were several of the LORD's martyrs, who suffered for asserting and trusting in the one true God. In the primitive church of CHRIST the martyrs shed. their blood, for maintaining the truth of JESUS CHRIST crucified: But now there are martyrs of the holy Spirit, who suffer for their dependance on it, for maintaining its reign in souls, and for being victims of the divine Will.

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Ir is this spirit which is to be poured out on all flesh, as saith the prophet JOEL. The martyrs of JESUS CHRIST have been glorious martyrs, he having drank up the confusion of that martyrdom: But the martyrs of the holy Spirit are mar tyrs of reproach and ignominy. The devil, no more exercises his power against their faith or belief, but directly attacks the dominion of the holy Spirit, opposing its celestial motion in souls, and discharging his hatred on the bodies of those whose minds he cannot hurt. Oh holy Spirit, a Spirit of love, let me ever be subjected to thy will, and, as a leaf is moved before the wind, so let me by thy divine breath. As the impetuous wind breaks all that resists it, so break all that opposes thy empire, even the towering cedars, which stand in such opposition.

It is said of JESUS CHRIST that he yielded up the ghost, or sent forth his spirit. (Matt. xxvii. 50.) This was both the consummation of his pains, and the consummation of all ages, even of all things, which through his Spirit shall be done in the whole world. Hence he said, it is finished, or consummated (John xix. 37.) Since his death, St. Paul has told us that he shall deliver up the kingdom to GOD his Father, (1 Cor. xv. 24.) to the end that God by his Spirit may reign' on earth. JESUS CHRIST taught to pray that the kingdom of GOD may come, and his will be done on earth as in heaven, which implies the subjection of the whole will in the creature to that of the creator, even without any reluctance, hesitation or delay. Then will his reign be consummated, and his enemies become his footstool. Oh thus may all be reduced into one, though it be through much destruction of what opposes this kingdom, according to CHRIST's words, viz. I came not to send peace but Eee a sword.

a sword. Mat. x. 34. I am come to send fire on earth: And what will I, if it be already kindled? Luke xii. 49.

CHAP. VIII.

[SHE begins this Chapter with relating their artifices to compel her to a formal retraction of all the crimes, of which she was accused, and to impeach La Combe, as the original deceiver. When baffled in this, they framed some execrable forgeries, by which they made her accuse herself of the most abo minable crimes, and impeach La Combe as the person who had seduced and deceived her.]

THOUGH Father La Combe be under close confinement, we do not fail to communicate in God. Many spiritual persons, to whom the LORD has united me by the tie of maternity, experience the same communication, though in my absence, and find in this union the remedy or relief of their pains. Oh God, who hast chosen in this poor creature to erect the throne of thy goodness and severity, thou knowest that I pass over many things, either for want of remembering, or of knowing how to express them. I have said what I could, and that with the utmost sincerity and entire truth. Though I have been obliged to describe the procedure of those who persecute me, I have not done it out of resentment, since I love them at

my heart, and pray for them, leaving to God the care of defending me, and delivering me out of their hands, without making any movement of my own for it. I have apprehended and believed that God would have me write every thing sincerely, that his name may be glorified; that the things done in secret against his servants should one day be published on the house tops; for the

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more they strive to conceal them from the eyes of men, the more will GOD in his own time make them, all manifest.

AT present I experience two states, that of CHRIST crucified and of his infant state, the one of daily crosses, very violent, without number or intermission; the other so child-like, simple and candid, that methinks if my soul were to be impressed any way, there could come nothing out of it but candor, innocence, submission and patience. Oh my GoD, methinks thou hast made me a prodigy, a monument of thy goodness and wonderful works! There is wrought in me something of the original, which is communicated to me after a manner inexplicable, which nothing but experience can comprehend; 'Tis then to thee, O MY LOVE, that I render what I have writ for thee,

DONE this 22d of August, 1688, aged forty years, in my prison, which I love and cherish, as find it sanctified by MY LOVE.

I FORGOT to tell that I had a sense of the state of the souls which came to me, and of that of the persons which were given me, how far distant soever they were from me. By sense I mean an interior impression of what they were, especially such as passed for spiritual. I knew presently whether they were upright or artful, their degree, or their self-love, for which I felt a rejection. I knew when they were stout in themselves, and supported by the virtue they imagined they had, by which they measured others, and condemned in their minds those who were not like themselves, though more perfect. These persons who think themselves righteous, and are thought so by others, are much more unacceptable to GOD, than

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some sinners from weakness, who are looked on with contempt; whom neverthelecs GOD favours with great mercies: Which will not be fully seen but at the day of judgment. He beholds afar off those souls which are so exalted and full of themselves, though they fancy themselves humble, because they appear in some acts of humility, which for the most part increase the high opinion they have of themselves. If they were to suffer some real humiliation, then would appear their want of solidity. Oh if people knew how much Gon loves the true littleness of spirit in the creature, they would behold it with amazement.

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they speak to me of some persons of piety, my inward sense rejects those who are not in the low state I have mentioned; and admits those who are subject to GOD in that state. There is something in me which refuses the evil, however glossy or covered; and greatly loves the true and solid good, I find it is the same even in the practice of virtues; or what pass for such. This spirit discerns the real virtue from that which only wears its likeness. Of such as have left this life and are now accounted saints, it esteems those most who have been most annihilated, and whom God has most sanctified by his own operation; it does not join in the world's cry, in attributing to others that which they wanted.

It was thought I was about coming out of prison, and every thing seemed to tend toward it. But the LORD gave me a sense that, far from being willing to deliver me, their consultations were only laying new snares to ruin me more effectually, to make Father La Mothe known to the King, and esteemed by him. The 22d of August I waked under an impression of JESUS CHRIST in an agony, seeing the counsel of the Jews against him,

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