Could hold vain dalliance with the misery Even of the dead; contented thence to draw A momentary pleasure, never marked
By reason, barren of all future good.
But we have known that there is often found In mournful thoughts, and always might be found, A power to virtue friendly; were't not so,
I am a dreamer among men, indeed An idle dreamer! 'Tis a common tale, An ordinary sorrow of man's life,
A tale of silent suffering, hardly clothed In bodily form.-But without further bidding I will proceed.
While thus it fared with them,
To whom this cottage, till those hapless years, Had been a blessed home, it was my chance
To travel in a country far remote ;
And when these lofty elms once more appeared What pleasant expectations lured me on
O'er the flat Common !-With quick step I reached The threshold, lifted with light hand the latch; But, when I entered, Margaret looked at me A little while; then turned her head away Speechless, and, sitting down upon a chair, Wept bitterly. I wist not what to do,
Nor how to speak to her. Poor Wretch! at last She rose from off her seat, and then,-O Sir! I cannot tell how she pronounced my name:—
With fervent love, and with a face of grief Unutterably helpless, and a look
That seemed to cling upon me, she enquired If I had seen her husband. As she spake A strange surprise and fear came to my heart, Nor had I power to answer ere she told
That he had disappeared-not two months gone. He left his house: two wretched days had past, And on the third, as wistfully she raised Her head from off her pillow, to look forth, Like one in trouble, for returning light, Within her chamber-casement she espied A folded paper, lying as if placed
To meet her waking eyes. This tremblingly She opened-found no writing, but beheld Pieces of money carefully enclosed,
Silver and gold. I shuddered at the sight,' Said Margaret, for I knew it was his hand That must have placed it there; and ere that day Was ended, that long anxious day, I learned, From one who by my husband had been sent With the sad news, that he had joined a troop Of soldiers, going to a distant land.
—He left me thus he could not gather heart To take a farewell of me; for he feared
That I should follow with my babes, and sink Beneath the misery of that wandering life.'
This tale did Margaret tell with many tears:
And, when she ended, I had little power
To give her comfort, and was glad to take Such words of hope from her own mouth as served To cheer us both. But long we had not talked Ere we built up a pile of better thoughts, And with a brighter eye she looked around As if she had been shedding tears of joy. We parted. 'Twas the time of early spring; I left her busy with her garden tools;
And well remember, o'er that fence she looked, And, while I paced along the foot-way path, Called out, and sent a blessing after me, With tender cheerfulness, and with a voice That seemed the very sound of happy thoughts.
I roved o'er many a hill and many a dale, With my accustomed load; in heat and cold, Through many a wood and many an open ground, In sunshine and in shade, in wet and fair, Drooping or blithe of heart, as might befal; My best companions now the driving winds,
And now the trotting brooks' and whispering trees, And now the music of my own sad steps,
With many a short-lived thought that passed between, And disappeared.
I journeyed back this way, When, in the warmth of midsummer, the wheat Was yellow; and the soft and bladed grass, Springing afresh, had o'er the hay-field spread
I found that she was absent. In the shade, Where now we sit, I waited her return. Her cottage, then a cheerful object, wore Its customary look,-only, it seemed,
The honeysuckle, crowding round the porch, Hung down in heavier tufts; and that bright weed, The yellow stone-crop, suffered to take root Along the window's edge, profusely grew Blinding the lower panes. I turned aside, And strolled into her garden. It appeared To lag behind the season, and had lost
Its pride of neatness. Daisy-flowers and thrift Had broken their trim border-lines, and straggled O'er paths they used to deck: carnations, once Prized for surpassing beauty, and no less For the peculiar pains they had required, Declined their languid heads, wanting support. The cumbrous bind-weed, with its wreaths and bells, Had twined about her two small rows of peas, And dragged them to the earth.
Was wasted.-Back I turned my restless steps; A stranger passed; and, guessing whom I sought, He said that she was used to ramble far.— The sun was sinking in the west; and now I sate with sad impatience. From within Her solitary infant cried aloud;
Then, like a blast that dies
The voice was silent. From the bench I rose ; But neither could divert nor soothe my thoughts. The spot, though fair, was very desolate- The longer I remained, more desolate : And, looking round me, now I first observed The corner stones, on either side the porch, With dull red stains discoloured, and stuck o'er With tufts and hairs of wool, as if the sheep, That fed upon the Common, thither came Familiarly, and found a couching-place Even at her threshold. Deeper shadows fell From these tall elms; the cottage-clock struck eight ;- I turned, and saw her distant a few steps. Her face was pale and thin-her figure, too, Was changed. As she unlocked the door, she said, 'It grieves me you have waited here so long, But, in good truth, I've wandered much of late; And, sometimes to my shame I speak-have need Of my best prayers to bring me back again.' While on the board she spread our evening meal, She told me-interrupting not the work Which gave employment to her listless hands- That she had parted with her elder child; To a kind master on a distant farm Now happily apprenticed. I perceive You look at me, and you have cause; to-day I have been travelling far; and many days About the fields I wander, knowing this Only, that what I seek I cannot find;
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