Such hath it been-shall be-beneath the sun The many still must labour for the one!
'Tis Nature's doom-but let the wretch who toils, Accuse not, hate not him who wears the spoils. Oh! if he knew the weight of splendid chains, How light the balance of his humbler pains!
Unlike the heroes of each ancient race, Demons in act, but Gods at least in face, In Conrad's form seems little to admire, Though his dark eyebrow shades a glance of fire: Robust but not Herculean-to the sight No giant frame sets forth his common height; Yet, in the whole, who paused to look again, Saw more than marks the crowd of vulgar men; They gaze and marvel how-and still confess That thus it is, but why they cannot guess. Sun-burnt his cheek, his forehead high and pale The sable curls in wild profusion veil;
And oft perforce his rising lip reveals
The haughtier thought it curbs, but scarce conceals. Though smooth his voice, and calm his general mien, Still seems there something he would not have seen: His features' deepening lines and varying hue At times attracted, yet perplex'd the view, As if within that murkiness of mind Work'd feelings fearful, and yet undefined; Such might it be-that none could truly tell- Too close inquiry his stern glance would quell. There breathe but few whose aspect might defy The full encounter of his searching eye:
He had the skill, when Cunning's gaze would seek To probe his heart and watch his changing cheek, At once the observer's purpose to espy,
And on himself roll back his scrutiny, Lest he to Conrad rather should betray Some secret thought, than drag that chief's to day. There was a laughing Devil in his sneer, That raised emotions both of rage and fear; And where his frown of hatred darkly fell, Hope withering fled-and Mercy sigh'd farewell!
Slight are the outward signs of evil thought, Within-within-'twas there the spirit wrought! Love shows all changes-Hate, Ambition, Guile, Betray no further than the bitter smile; The lip's least curl, the lightest paleness thrown Along the govern'd aspect, speak alone
Of deeper passions; and to judge their mien, He, who would see, must be himself unseen. Then-with the hurried tread, the upward eye, The clenched hand, the pause of agony, That listens, starting, lest the step too near Approach intrusive on that mood of fear: Then-with each feature working from the heart, With feelings loosed to strengthen-not depart: That rise-convulse-contend-that freeze, or glow, Flush in the cheek, or damp upon the brow; Then-Stranger! if thou canst, and tremblest not, Behold his soul-the rest that soothes his lot! Mark-how that lone and blighted bosom sears The scathing thought of execrated years!
Behold-but who hath seen, or e'er shall see, Man as himself-the secret spirit free?
Yet was not Conrad thus by Nature sent To lead the guilty—guilt's worst instrument— His soul was changed, before his deeds had driven Him forth to war with man and forfeit heaven. Warp'd by the world in Disappointment's school, In words too wise, in conduct there a fool; Too firm to yield, and far too proud to stoop, Doom'd by his very virtues for a dupe, He cursed those virtues as the cause of ill, And not the traitors who betray'd him still; Nor deem'd that gifts bestow'd on better men Had left him joy, and means to give again. Fear'd-shunn'd-belied- -ere youth had lost her force, He hated man too much to feel remorse, And thought the voice of wrath a sacred call, To pay the injuries of some on all.
He knew himself a villain-but he deem'd The rest no better than the thing he seem’d; And scorn'd the best as hypocrites who hid Those deeds the bolder spirit plainly did. He knew himself detested, but he knew
The hearts that loath'd him, crouch'd and dreaded too. Lone, wild, and strange, he stood alike exempt From all affection and from all contempt: His name could sadden, and his acts surprise; But they that fear'd him dared not to despise: Man spurns the worm, but pauses ere he wake The slumbering venom of the folded snake:
The first may turn—but not avenge the blow; The last expires-but leaves no living foe; Fast to the doom'd offender's form it clings, And he may crush-not conquer-still it stings!
None are all evil-quickening round his heart, One softer feeling would not yet depart; Oft could he sneer at others as beguiled By passions worthy of a fool or child;
Yet 'gainst that passion vainly still he strove, And even in him it asks the name of Love! Yes, it was love-unchangeable-unchanged, Felt but for one from whom he never ranged; Though fairest captives daily met his eye, He shunn'd, nor sought, but coldly pass'd them by; Though many a beauty droop'd in prison'd bower, None ever soothed his most unguarded hour. Yes-it was Love-if thoughts of tenderness, Tried in temptation, strengthen'd by distress, Unmoved by absence, firm in every clime, And yet-Oh more than all !—untired by time; Which nor defeated hope, nor baffled wile, Could render sullen were she near to smile, Nor rage could fire, nor sickness fret to vent On her one murmur of his discontent;
Which still would meet with joy, with calmness part, Lest that his look of grief should reach her heart; Which nought removed, nor menaced to remove- If there be love in mortals-this was love! He was a villain-ay-reproaches shower On him-but not the passion, nor its power,
Which only proved, all other virtues gone,
Not guilt itself could quench this loveliest one!
He paused a moment—till his hastening men Pass'd the first winding downward to the glen. "Strange tidings!—many a peril have I past, "Nor know I why this next appears the last! "Yet so my heart forebodes, but must not fear, "Nor shall my followers find me falter here. ""Tis rash to meet, but surer death to wait "Till here they hunt us to undoubted fate; "And, if my plan but hold, and Fortune smile, "We'll furnish mourners for our funeral-pile. "Ay-let them slumber-peaceful be their dreams! "Morn ne'er awoke them with such brilliant beams "As kindle high to-night (but blow, thou breeze!) "To warm these slow avengers of the seas. "Now to Medora-Oh! my sinking heart, "Long may her own be lighter than thou art! "Yet was I brave-mean boast where all are brave! "Ev'n insects sting for aught they seek to save. "This common courage which with brutes we share, "That owes its deadliest efforts to despair, "Small merit claims-but 'twas my nobler hope "To teach my few with numbers still to cope; "Long have I led them—not to vainly bleed: "No medium now-we perish or succeed! "So let it be-it irks not me to die;
"But thus to urge them whence they cannot fly. "My lot hath long had little of my care,
"But chafes my pride thus baffled in the snare:
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