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visiting the place regularly for a few genuineness of her experience. But weeks, I was able to establish a all doubts and misgivings soon va. school for the religious instruction nished, when I saw the foundation of the children of the village; my on which her hopes rested, the time was now delightfully occupied. source from which ber happiness The public service commenced at was derived, and witnessed the twelve o'clock, the usual hour for effects which the hope of glory pro. the country in Scotland, where the duced, in purifying her sainted spiminister frequently comes from a rit. Mrs. Ramsay was then in her distance. At half-past one I bad thirty-eigbth year. About ten years to dine at one or otber of the many before this period, she bad been houses that were open to me; and brought into a state of anxious conat balf-past two the school com. cern for the welfare of ber soul, menced, in which upwards of fifty through the death of one of her scholars of both sexes seemed to children. Her husband was emvie with each other in the punctual. ployed as coachman in some neighity and cheerfulness of their attend- bouring gentleman's service, and ance on the instructions they re- thus the entire weight of household ceived, and in their affectionate at- concerns devolved upon her, wbich, tachment to their teacher. This with the care of a young and pumerhappy intercourse continued to the ous family, engrossed all her time close of the college-session, wben [ and strength. Through the distance was under the necessity of leaving of the kirk,' she could very seldom my temporary charge; but it was attend on the means of grace, and under the engagement of resuming the general strain of preaching from my labours among them on my re- the parochial pulpit, was not likely turn to Scotland in the ensuing Oc: to suit ber case. Her distress of tober.

mind continued to be very great, and When the commencement of the aided by her exertions in the care next session again brought me to of her family, which were far beEdinburgh, these dear people re- yond her strength, in destroying her ceived me with the most heartfelt health. Though, at tbis time, she expressions of grateful and affec. derived nothing hut misery from her tionate joy. At the conclusion of thoughts of religion, yet she was the public service, on the first Sab- extremely anxious that no stigma bath after' my return, a man came to should be cast' upon it, as the cause me, and requested I would visit his of her sufferings. Hence she did sick'wife, who had been a constant all in lier power to conceal the anattendant at the ball during the pre- guish she endured, and the source ceding winter, but was now confined from which it sprung. to her bed without any prospect of At length, through the preaching recovery. This man was the hus. at the ball, the means of grace were band of Mrs. Ramsay. I need not brought almost to her door. She say, that I readily accompanied him attended with eagerness from the to the sick.bed of his wife. 'On my very first, tbough the delicacy of conversing with her, she expressed her health caused her to suffer much herself to be so wholly delivered from the severity of the weather. A from the fear of death, so happy in sermon, preached from Rev. i. 7; the enjoyment of the Divine favour, gave a new turn to her feelings of so joyful in the prospeot of eternal alarm. She had before this been felicity; that I couless" sono suspi- possessed of some vague and indis cions arose in my mind as to the tinct notions respecting the necess

ty of being brought into the favour illness, she told me, with indescriba. of God, and living in his fear, whilst ble expression of countenance and she was tormented by the convic. voice, that she would rather, far ration of having lived entirely neglect- ther, go through all her bodily suf.. ful of his claims; and that, even ferings again, than endure the agony since awakened to a sense of her of a wounded spirit.-During the obligations to love and serve him, summer, when deprived of the pubshe was continually sinning against lic means of grace, she devoted herhim. But, under this sermon, she self to reading her Bible, and other was brought to perceive the situa. religious books which she was able tion in which she was placed by the to obtain. In the month of July she preaching of the gospel: she now was seized with her last illness, saw that the condemnation consist- which consisted in a complication ed in a rejection of the salvation of of disorders, that terminated in a the cross. Her anxiety now was to decline. The progress of the dis. ascertain whether she was the sub- case, though extremely painful and ject of that faith which worketh by debilitating, was very slow. About love, purifies the heart and life. She the middle of October she was con. wished to ascertain, whether she fined to her hed, from which she felt real love to the Redeemer. Her never more arose. Her resignation anxiety on this subject was so in- to the Divine will was now severely tense, that it deprived her of sleep, tried. During the summer she had and she could seldom obtain rest been anxiously longing for the re. till exhausted nature sunk into re- turn of the public means of grace, pose, when the morning was far ad- and now that desired period was vanced. A sermon, preached from just at hand, she was confined to Jobo xiv. 21, was blessed to the re- her bed. Her neighbours would moval of her uncertainty, and to the again be able to attend that ininisgreat relief of her mind; but she try which was endeared to her by still felt burthened under a load of its usefulness to her soul, whilst she conscious guilt, which rendered her would be entirely excluded. This life miserable. The last sermon she spoke of as her most painful preached in the ball that winter, trial : but this, as well as every other from 1 John i. 7, was the happy affliction, she was enabled to endure means of bringing her to joy and with unwavering patience and repeace in believing. In one part of signation, the sermon, an attempt was made to After I had once been to see her, describe the unbearable sufferings of my visits became a continual source a wounded spirit. She then felt (as of pleasure and support to my mind. she expressed herself,) as if her own Oni entering Gilmerton, I was acfeelings had been laid bare, and customed to proceed directly to her when the blood of atonement was cottage, and sit by her bed-side till brought forward, as speaking peace it was time to commence the service to the troubled conscience, and at the hall. The conversation of cleansing the soul from the pollution this dying saint was an admirable of sin, she felt that she had found preparative for the services of the the balm and the fountain which she sanctuary. O! when shall I realize needed, whilst Jesus Christ was re- those feelings in their full extent ceived as her all-sufficient and again, which occupied my breast only Saviour. The relief which she whilst preaching at Gilmerton! The enjoyed was inexpressibly sweet. death-bed of my friend was, to me, Aller months of severe and painful the portal of eternity; and I preacled as if standing on the brink of the jects of her earnest solicitude, She grave. It would be a vain attempt, was always anxious to know if they my friend, to endeavour 10 present attended the means of grace, and you with a detailed account of her had frequent opportunities, which continued meetening for glory. Her she eagerly improved, of cultivating humility led her to regard me as an serious impressions, which had been instructor; but, I assure you, that made upon their minds. I rememher dying-bed was to me a school of ber well, when she was drawing toChristian experience; and may I wards the last stage of weakness, never forget the lessons which were and her sufferings were most acute, there taught me, Her patience and opium had been prescribed, as the faith increased in power and splen- only means of affording her any dour as she approached the termi- respite from pain. The next time nation of her sufferings. Her resig- of my visiting her, on hearing that nation was unwearied; never was a she could obtain but little sleep, I murmur heard from her lips. Those inquired about the effects of the who knew her only as the subject opium, and found that she had reof a protracted and painful sickness, fused to take it a second time. She might think of her with pity ; but said, that though it deadened the none of those who visited her in her sense of pain, and procured her affliction, could long consider her as sleep, yet its influence so siupified an object of compassion. She had her mind, that she could not think her enjoyments, and her pleasures collectedly, nor could she converse were both rational and scriptural, with her neighbours who came to though highly exalted in their na- see her; and that she had rather enture and degree. Whilst conversing dure the continuance of her bodily on religious subjects, she seemed sufferings, than be precluded from almost insensible to pain, and when meditation on religious subjects, left alone, her time never passed and from attempting to do some heavily away, for her mind was oca good to those who visited her. Thus cupied with devout meditation. I she continued to the end. But you have told you of her being resigned know that I did not stay long to the Divine will, in all the afflic. enough in Scotland to close her tions she was called upon to en. eves : I left about a week before she dure; but resignation appears al. died. I cannot write an account of most too feeble a word to express my taking leave of her-it was most what was the predominant state of affecting. O that my God may hear her mind. Gratitude to God seemed her parting prayers for me, which to be the prevailing disposition. She subdued, whilst they exquisitely spoke of judgment only as it afford. gratified, my heart. ed her an opportunity of speaking I received the account of her in more exalted terms of mercy, death, in a letter from my highly Often has she expatiated to me on valued friend A-, of Edinburgh, a her obligations to her heavenly Fa- short time after my return to Engther, who removed some sources of land. What I now write will be an trouble, of a family nature, before extract from his letter. “With rethis, her last great affliction, began. gard to news, I begin with the spot · She was an affectionate wife, and where the Divine Spirit, through a tender mother, and her soul was your instrumentality, breathed upon bent upon promoting the best in- ihe dead in sin. You remember terests of those whom she loved. how ill you left one of them, and Her neighbours, too, were the ole may, on this account, be prepared

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to hear of her transition to a world my mind, as to render it no easy of bliss. It was on the following undertaking to fulfil your wishes. If Tuesday to that on which we part- what has been written, however, ed, at about eleven at night, that should increase your faith in the she exchanged a life of faith and pa. grace of the Redeemer; if it should tience for the full fruition of the render the interest you have exworld of glory. Miss W-was with pressed in my departed friend her at the time of her decease. In abiding-if it should enable you to a note to Miss M-, Miss W— says, sympathize more closely in the ten'Mrs. Ramsay is now no more. I der affection with which I must ever feel a strange want this morning; pronounce the name of Gilmerton, her heavenly conversation was a you will richly repay great pleasure to me. She died Your truly affectionate friend, praising ber God. I would not have exchanged my feelings at that solemn moment, no, not for this vain world, and all its empty nothings. I could wish Mr. - knew, but do

ON THE EXERCISE OF LOVE. as you think proper. Her love continued for him till the last moment. The scriptures emphatically de. On the Lord's-day following, she clare, for our confidence and encouwas interred. Our friends A— and ragement, that“GODIs Love;" love N— were at her funeral, which, in its very essence, love that “passeth N— said, 'was indeed an affecting understanding." It is higher than one.'-—In a letter which I have mye heaven what can we kpow? Here . self received from Miss W-(a most we are compelled to pause, wonder, interesting young woman, the first admire, and adore. For, if the most in Gilnerton to whom I bad good profound philosophers are obliged reason to hope that the blessing of to acknowledge that they can comGod had made me useful;) she says. prehend but little of causes separate

When Mrs. Ramsay died, then í from their effects ;-if the most acute could have wished to have told you metaphysicians cannot understand all her hopes, and how much she or explain abstract qualities, prinwas indebted to you. The last ciples, or ideas; either as to the words she spoke were, If ever you mode of their existence or operasee Mr. —, tell him, through our tion; and, if the most skilful anaLord, he saved me from endless mi. tomists are at a loss to account for sery-likewise, I die in the fullest many of the phenomena of the hope of being with my dear Saviour human frame, things with which we for ever. May the Lord for ever are all, more or less, familiar; with bless him! Little more could she how much greater force will the speak, in low accents praising her remark apply to the contemplation Redeemer she adored. When her of the nature, attributes, and per. pure spirit left it's earthly dwelling, fections of Him who is “ The King

stood lonely, I lost a dear friend — Eternal, Immortal, Invisible, the I could have followed.

only wise God.“ Such knowledge Thus have I brought the narra. is too wonderful for us, it is high we live of Mrs. Ramsay to a close. The cannot attain unto it.” “Who would sketch of her soul's history, which is not fear thee thou King of Saints, here given you, rapid and imperfect for unto thee doth it appertain.” as it is, has excited such a crowd of It must then be with the characpleasing and painful recollections in ter of God as discovered in his

works, as developed in his ways, have each their respective attraca and as revealed in his word, that we tions; and declare in unambiguous, finite creatures have principally to yet sublime language, the faithfuldo; here we can trace his love in ness, power, and love of God." He some of its modifications, and there. hath not left himself without witby ascertain something of its excel. ness in that he hath sent us rain lent nature and wonder-working from heaven, and fruitful seasons, power. Let us reflect on it first, filling our hearts with food and as manifested in creation. We are gladness." He hath this year also told by the sacred historian, “ And reserved unto us the appointed God saw every thing that he had weeks of harvest, " and our garners made, and behold it was very good.” are again filled with plenty, affordOf this we have abundant proof. ing all manner of store.” The eyes Contemplate the world itself as it of all wait upon thee, and thou came fresh from the hands of its givest them their meat in due sea. Maker, how magnificent, yet how son. Thou openest thine hand, useful! and although sin has de- and satisfiest the desire of every formed and subjected it to a curse, living thing. There is nothing so still it retains vestiges of its former diminutive as to be beneath the. grandeur, and marks of its pristine notice of divine love, nothing so beauty. “O Lord how manifold great or exalted, as to be indepenare thy works, in wisdom hast thou dent of its influence. “O that men made iliem all; the earth is full of would praise the Lord for his goodthe riches of thy glory, and so is ness, and for his wonderful works the great and wide sea."

to the cbildren of men." “ These are thy glorious works, Parent of But, it is in redemption that the Good!

love of God appears pre-eminent. Almighty! thine this universal frame

Here mercy and truth meet together, Thus wondrous fair! Thyself how wono righteousness and peace embrace drous then!”

each other. " God so loved the Happy those who so study nature

world, that he gave his only begotten as to lead them up to nature's

Son, that whosoever believeth on God." ., The love of God is also displayed

him should not perish, but liave in the kingdom of providence. He manifest in the flesh, was stronger

everlasting life.” The love of “God, it is who causeth his sun to sbine

line than death, more powerful than the upon the evil and good, and sendeth

grave, which many waters could his rain upon the just and the un

une not quench, por the floods drowo." just. The verdure of Spring,

It was love that pitied “ man in bis "When love warbles in the vocal groves, low estate.” it was love that prompt. And vegetation plants the plain,”

ed a way for his recovery, it was the beauties of Summer,

love that executed the “ wondrous “When the green (bow'r with roses plan." and it is to love that we look

crowned, Io showers its fragrant foliage sheds,"

for the full and final consummation the fruitfuluess of Autumn. when of all that pertains to our eternal her

salvation. May we, by beholding “ Yellow lustre gilds the world,

the exbibition of the unparalleled And tempts the sickled swain into the love of our Divine Surety, be field,"

“ changed into the same image and the sterility of Winter, from glory to glory, as by the Spirit “ The leafless wood, the paked field,

of God.” The snow.topt cot, the frozep rill,” · Having feebly glanced at some of

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