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time she used to read with delight the four Gospels, especially those parts about our Saviour. Her father died during her infancy, and as her mother kept a small school, she was often left alone; but at these times she has been observed seated on her little chair with her hymn book in her hand, warbling the words of some favourite hymn to a tune of her own: then placing the book behind her, she has taken up the Bible, and reading aloud a chapter, she has been heard at times, saying to herself, “that is good! that is beautiful!Then replacing the Bible behind her chair, she has again used her efforts to give melody to the hymn which drew her attention, and closed the whole with prayer.-But though perhaps very few children had been kept so much from out. ward sin, yet she was not too young to feel its burden, and to see that young as she was, she had lived long enough to ruin her soul by sin, and to need the precious blood of Jesus to cleanse her, which was her only hope of salvation. The first time she was carried up stairs, in the beginning of her last illness, she said to her mother, “ let me pray before I am put into bed ; try to place me on my knees.” Finding this could not be done, she said,“then I will pray on your lap," when she prayed in an agony to the Lord to par. don her, saying to her mother, “I have been

very naughty ; don't you remember you told me to do something the other day, and I re. fused ? I know that was very naughty: and I recollect when I was playing, I said a bad word; my heart is very bad, I feel I am a great sinner ; do you think God will pardon my sins ? O I am afraid I shall die, and go to the bad place ! O, if I could but go to my knees, and pray to the heavenly Fa. ther to pardon my sins, and give ine a clean heart !” After her mother had endeavoured to calm and compose her, she fell asleep ; but some time after, awaking, she said, “do you think God will forgive, and love me?" Her mother replied she did not doubt it, and then repeated the words, “ Suffer little chil. dren to come unto me, &c.” She cried out with great joy, “ O yes, I have read that in my Bible; then my blessed Saviour will take me in his arms, and bless me, for I am a little child, and he will take me to heaven when I die. 0 I do believe he loves me, and I love him, but not so much as I ought to do, for I want to love him as much as he loves me.” From this time she appears to have enjoyed much of the Lord's presence, and very seldom, if ever doubted of her salvation : her comfort, was that Jesus died for sinners ; she felt she was a sin, ner, and was by faith enabled to receive him as her Saviour. “ Now," she said, "I am

not afraid to die, for I know my blessed Savia our will take me to heaven." She told all who came in to see her what the Lord had done for her soul. She used to say, "he has washed away my sins, and so he will yours, if you pray to him. You cannot go to heaven unless you pray to have your sins pardoned, and to have a clean heart. Pray to be kept from sin, for you cannot keep yourself from it." For some months before her death her suf. ferings were great, but her consolations by Christ were still greater. She never complained, but was often heard to pray, “my blessed Saviour, give me patience, that I may not murmur, for if I do it will be sinful. Keep me from sin, that I may not grieve thee; fill my heart with grace, and love." One night she said, “I love my blessed Saviour with all my heart, and mind, and strength, but that is not enough; I want to love him as much as he loves me. O, he has made me bappier than I can express-he died for me, and all poor helpless sinners, and is now at the Father's right hand interceding for us." She desired a friend who called, to give her her Bible, adding, “ that is my delight, I like to read other good books, but this is God's own word, and it is precious to me" (looking at it with pleasure.) She desired another to pray and read the Bible, that she might be able, when she saw her again, to tell her

what great things the Lord had done for her soul. One night she said to her mother, “when I am in heaven, I will ask my hea. venly Father to let me be your guardian angel, and if you should forget God, O how I should look down upon you : I have been thinking if I were to hear you were dead and you did not come to heaven, how I should cry; (then recol'ecting herself) but there is no sorrow, nor crying, nor pain there, but I would ask my blessed, heaven. ly Father, let my dear mother come to hea. ven to me.” She said one day, “I cannot keep myself for a moment from sin. When I try to keep myself, bad thoughts come into my mind, then I pray to Jesus to take them away, and they are gone in an instant.” She used to call the xiv. chapter of St. John her favourite chapter, saying that when she read it, it seemed as if the Saviour himself was speaking to her. From frequently reading it, she could repeat it; and when, from the shortness of her breath, she was unable to do this, and her mother has read it to her, she has listened to it with the most fixed atten. tion, exclaiming, “ praise the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, praise his holy name.” Her cousin who was going to school, came to take leave of her; she said “I do not expect ever to see you again here, but I hope you will come to heaven, and I

will run out to lead you in : but (she added) we must pray to be kept from sin, for there is no sin in heaven.” She was asked, which do you love most-God, or your mother ? She replied, “O I love my mother with my heart, because she is so kind to me, but I love the Lord with all my heart ; he has made me so happy, and he gave me my mo. ther.” The 42nd Psalm was read to her, be. ginning, “ As the hart panteth after the water, &c.” “O (she said)that is like me: my heart does pant, and thirst after God; it is panting now.” Her concern for the souls of her brothers and sister was greater than can be expressed : she used to pray and cry to the Lord to pardon their sins, and make them happy, and take them to heaven when they die. She presset her sister many times to give her heart to God;" will you promise me that you will ?" she said to herone day. Finding she did not answer, she continued, "then

I will tell you, Jane, what to say, if you are - afraid of breaking your promise ; say, “By

God's help I will, if he will please to give me his grace to do so.'” Being asked if she wished to recover ; “ne, (sheanswered :) God does never put such thoughts into my mind; if it is his will that I should, that will be best ; but if it is his will that I should die, that will be best; I should be willing to die this very minute if it was my heavenly Fa.

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