But higher far my proud pretensions rise — Smooth, snail, list'n'd, list'ns, list'n'st, spear, spleen, spring, asps, clasp'd, stead, strong, tastes, tast'st. Thou unrelenting Past ! And fetters, sure and fast, Far in thy realm withdrawn, And glorious ages gone Childhood, with all its mirth, Thou hast my better years, Yielded to thee with tears - My spirit yearns to bring And struggles hard to wring In vain — thy gates deny Nor to the streaming eye In thy abysses hide Earth's wonder and her pride Labors of good to man, Love, that 'midst grief began, Full many a mighty name With thee are silent fame, Thine, for a space, are they — Thy gates shall yet give way, All that of good and fair Shall then come forth, to wear They have not perished - no! Smiles, radiant long ago, All shall come back, each tie affection shall be knit again ; And then shall I behold And her, who, still and cold, Length'n, length'n'd, length'n'dst, length'ns, truths, throne, smooth’d. smooths, smooth'st. But in the still, unbroken air, Her gentle tones come stealing by, And years, and sin, and manhood, flee, And leave me at my mother's knee. The book of nature, and the print Of beauty on the whispering sea, Give aye to me some lineament Of what I have been taught to be. My heart is harder, and perhaps My manliness hath drunk up tears, Of a few miserable years ; I have been out, at eventide, Beneath a moonlit sky of spring, When earth was garnished like a bride, And Night had on her silver wing When bursting leaves, and diamond grass, And waters leaping to the light, And all that make the pulses pass With wilder fleetness, thronged the night; When all was beauty — then have I, With friends on whom my love is flung, Like myrrh on winds of Araby, Gazed up where evening's lamp is hung. And when the beauteous spirit there Flung over me its golden chain, My mother's voice came on the air, Like the light dropping of the rain, Showered on me from some silver star : Then, as on childhood's bended knee, I've poured her low and fervent prayer, That our eternity might be I have been on the dewy hills, When night was stealing from the dawn, And mist was on the waking rills, And tints were delicately drawn In the gray east, — when birds were waking, With a slow murmur, in the trees, And melody by fits was breaking Upon the whisper of the breeze; And this when I was forth, perchance, As a worn reveller from the dance ; And when the sun sprang gloriously And freely up, and hill and river Were catching, upon wave and tree, The subtile arrows from his quiver ; I say, a voice has thrilled me then, Heard on the still and rushing light, Or creeping from the silent glen, Like words from the departing night,Hath stricken me, and I have pressed On the wet grass my fevered brow, And, pouring forth the earliest, First prayer with which I learned to bow, Have felt my mother's spirit rush Upon me, as in by-past years, And, yielding to the blessed gush Of my ungovernable tears, Have risen up - the gay, the wild — As humble as a very child. |