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like these rode me in the solution of every problem, whether of learning or conduct. At the same time, the very obstacle to which I had thus yielded was triumphantly vanquished by my competitors of unmixed descent, whether Europeans or Hindoos, as a well-poised skiff mounts with the wave and rides gallantly over it. In short, I was conscious of a certain quickness of apprehension, that carried me lightly along to a certain point. The sentiment stimulated my ardour and soothed my vanity; but when I had to thread consecutive reasonings, which, though of the simplest form, lay beyond the propo sition I had embraced, my way became dark and confused, and, in despair of advancing an inch further in the labyrinth, I sunk down in a fit of torpor, which became by degrees rather agreeable than painful.

“ Whence was this? I was alarmed at the soothing complacency that came over me on these occasions. Had I persisted in the struggle to the last, and then retired with defeat, my case would have been less hopeless; but, instead of making an effort to burst through the barrier, I tranquilly laid myself to rest the moment I reached it.

“ Years glided calmly and pleasurably along: I pursued the unambitious tenor of my way, unoffending and unoffended. In truth, when I turn back to the events of my life, which have left on my mind a chequered feeling of pleasure and pain, I feel a grateful veneration towards the Supreme Disposer, who shed upon my earlier course the choicest of his blessings. I looked around amongst my contemporary half-castes - Eurasians, I beg their pardons—and observed them to be in the same peaceful condition of fortune. Indeed, the Eurasian lot, which it is so much the fashion to commiserate, is for the most part auspiciously cast. The British parent, engrossed in the pursuits of gain, and the gradual accumulations which are to enable him to return to England, and having, therefore, no inclination to an union with one of his own countrywomen-for English beauty is a divinity that requires costly sacrifices at her altar-bestows his undivided cares on his Eurasian progeny; and nature, who always acts by rule, has in each family limited this progeny to a small number, and, in the greater part of a given number of instances, to a single one. Thus, the fruit of the connexion is endeared to him who has condemned himself to celibacy for the sake of fortune; and we are fondly nurtured in an affluence of all that is sufficient to render those happy, who are neither sufficiently English to be enamoured of intemperate pleasures, nor sufficiently Hindoo to debar ourselves from those which are innocent. Happy Eurasians, till the fatal knowledge was revealed to you, that you were degraded by disabilities you never knew, and bowed down to the ground by the weight of fetters you never felt ! With many of them I lived in close communion, and never did a murmur escape their lips. They made no idle comparisons, and complained of no injurious contrasts.

“At Madras, I was placed, at the age of seventeen-an epoch of Eurasian, equivalent to the maturity of European, life-at the desk of a house of agency. It was an age when nature, an expert schoolmistress, made me accessible to youthful emotions. My homage was first paid to English beauty ; but with sensations of awe rather than love :-yet there was something in that awe which propelled me to the object that inspired it. In my musings on the subject, it did not occur to me that an abstract beauty resided in the European complexion, but was to be traced in the nameless accessories to that complexion, constituting, on the whole, a being that seemed to be perfection. It was, as the swain says in Comus, a thing that, as it passed by, I worshipped. But when I spoke with it, I wanted the requisite phrase and idiom; my tongue clove to my mouth, and refused its office.

“I resided, at this time, in the garden-house of a storekeeper, a respectable, and often an opulent class of the English community in India, but living in a subordinate sphere of connexion. He had an only daughter-a spoiled coquettish pet ; pretty, though with diminutive features, and eyes rather arch and playful than expressive. She interested me most strangely. Was it love, about which I had read so much? Why not then make love at once? It was known that my father was rich. Where then was the disparity ? My colour was not black; it was a tinge of olive only, that distinguished my complexion from the European. It is true, cosmetics would not help it ;-but I said, as Othello did of his—Yet that's not much.'

“She was an interesting creature, that Amelia Waddle ; but the difficulty lay in my inexperience, not so much of the passion, as the set phrase—the words-in which I was to reveal it. Certain novels occasionally came out from England by the India ships, and chiefly from the Temple of Minerva in Leadenhall Street: of course, I imagined they were written under the sanction, probably by order, of the Company, the seat of whose authority was in that very street. I read them, therefore, voraciously, looking up to them as accurate models of the art of making love, Ovid's were only the rules, but here were to be found their living illustrations. Often did I commit to memory parts of an interesting moonlight dialogue, from some of the numerous brood of fictions which Minerva, perhaps at a loss how to dispose of them at home, used to send out to India. But I rehearsed them in a voice so timid and faultering, that, conjoined with my Eurasian accent, which is never to be conquered nor dissembled, she supposed, or pretended to suppose, was talking a language she did not understand :

I don't understand Gentoos,' she said, “so you had better hold your tongue.' Perverse thing! Thus she rebuked me into silence.

“ Now and then, but at long intervals, a civilian or two of rank, who had a respect for my father, invited me to dinner. Who has not heard of Cecil Smith, the pleasantest, the wittiest of men? I sat occasionally, a silent and unpretending guest, at his hospitable board, and the conversation I heard there, chiefly pertaining to England, seemed to open glimpses to me of an unknown world. I was, therefore, careful in treasuring up all that I heard in the delightful societies that encircled his table. Amongst other things, I remember hearing a clever man remark, that a series of attentions would win any woman upon earth.' Invaluable aphorism !

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