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mind; and I spent the wholo night in prayer, was in a short time completely fulfilled, as that if it was the Lord's gracious will, I the reader will presently hear. might indeed be comforted by his Holy Spirit After receiving the comunication, I was in the morning. My prayer was heard, still more beset by the wiles of the evil one, accepted, and abundantly answered by him, during the days which immediately followed, who has pledged himself to be the hearer than I had ever been before ; which caused and answerer of prayer ;' for on the next me to cry out stronger than ever to my hea. morning, while engaged in my household du- venly Father, to give me Christ, or I should ties, the Lord was pleased once more to shine die.' The dear Lord was not only pleased to into my despairing soul, by means of the hear my petitions, but to send an answer of words, Rom. viii. *There is, therefore, now peace to my troubled soul; for on the Sabo no condemnation to them which are in Christ bath, while sitting in his house, the following Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after text was given out by the Rev. T. Styles; the Spirit. This, to me, ever memorable cir. Haggia ii. last clause of 19th verse, From cumstance, took place October, 4th, 1839. this day I will bless you.' This comforting From this time, I went on my way like the passage through the blessing of the Holy Eunuch of old, rejoicing, and walked in the Spirit, brought me deliverance from the dark strength of that meat for the next four years state of mind, in which I had then been for and a half, enjoying the favour, and gracious nearly ten months. Now, indeed the captive countenance of my Lord and Master the was free! the prisoner was released. Immewhole time, although I was sometimes doubting. diately my burden seemed to roll from my

About four years and a half after this de- mind, and I was like a bird let out of its cage. liverance, God, in his infinite wisdon, again I could now once more rejoice with Mary, laid me upon a bed of suffering. Satan was in 'God my Saviour, for he had.regarded the now permitted to trouble and tempt me woree low estate of his handmaiden: He had done than before, suggesting to my mind that I was to me great things, and holy is his name. I only an empty professor of religion, and that was almost forced to cry out for joy in the I had no saving grace in my heart; in fact midst of the service. The savour of this that I had neither part nor lot in the matter, sweet visitation lasted for nearly six weess, Everywhere the dreadful thought that I so that I neither enjoyed food nor sleep for should be eternally lost, continually haunted a long time; for why should I, when my me, and turned my day as it were into night. blessed Master was feeding my soul with that In various ways I was again tempted to self heavenly

manna, which the world knows nodestruction, but by the good hand of God, I thing of? To give some idea of the awful was continually preserved, and all attempts of state of mind I was in during this affliction, theevil one frustrated. I could afterwards truly one of my children, then only about tour say with the Psalmist, Rejoice not against years of age, distinctly remembers an incident me, O mine enemy, for though I fall, yet shall which happened about that time. I requested I rise again.' I was so reduced in mind and the attendant to bring up all my children in. body, that I was not able to take up a pen to to the bedroom, that I might eat them up; write to my only dear sister for eight months; which made such a deep impression on his and while thinking one day of again commu- mind that he could not be persuaded to enter nicating with her by letter, a voice seemed to the room for many weeks afterwards. For come to me through the window by which I a long time, I knew not what it was to enwas standing, saying, (Jer. xxxi. 3,): I have joy repose for a single night: the enemy loved thee with an everlasting love : therefore never left me during the whole time. with loving kindness have I drawn thee.' I enjoyed the light of the Lord's counten.

At the same spot in the next, and on the ance for five years after this, and I then be same day of the week, I seemed to hear the gan to think with the man of God, that my same voice say, 'I have loved thee, O sinner, mountain stood strong,' that I should not with an everlasting love : therefore with love again be moved. But O how soon was my faith ing kindness have I drawn thee. On the to be tested; and that by a furnace, heated Eaine day in the week after this, and at the seven times hotter than it had ever been before. same spot, I seemed to hear the voice say more I was once more plunged into the deep waters distinctly than before, I have loved thee, 0 of spiritual affliction, which as he who suffered Sarah, with an everlasting love.' &c. I was long before me, the like trials, has truly said, led to beg the dear Lord, that if it was his ' ran orer over my soul.' blessed will, this passage might be fastened For many months I was again laid low, in my mind, like a nail in a sure place, by the both in mind and body; the subject of the Master of assemblies; and that I might be set same despairing thoughts, as to the reality of at liberty through it. I now wrote to my sister, my Christian profession, that had so grievously and informed her of the sweet promises which assailed me in my former troubles. The great had been given to me, begging her to entreat adversary once more, in every possible man. the King of kings on my behalf. In return ner, tempted me to put an end to my earthly she wrote to tell me, that she had taken my career, but in all bis attempts I was preserred case before the throne of grace, and the an- by him who has overcome the world. On swer tbat she had received was, whatsoever one evening in particular, I had retired to my ye ask in faith, believing, ye shall receive ;' bed about eight o'clock, with the hope of pro and that she was convinced from this passage, curing some sleep, however little ; but as I that I should soon be set at liberty.

could not obtain this wished for rest, I was Her assurance that I should soon be released advised to take a few drops of laulanum,

I re

When those about me had retired from the Mr. M, took for his text Isaiah liv. 12, room, and I was once more alone, Satan sug. O thou afflicted, tossed with tempest, and gested that I had better take the whole, and not comforted, behold, I will lay thy stones die. About a table spoonful of the drug. with fair colours, and lay thy foundations with was in the bottle. I took it up, and drank sapphires. At the close of the service, Mr. M. pearly the whole, and then lay down upon my showed me the 'EARTHEN VESSEL, your bed, fully expecting that I should never again valued periodical, which, before that time, I open my eyes in this world. But, 0! the had been entirely unacquainted with. lovingkindness of my adorable Lord, who in turned home with a slender ray of hope in his infinite mercy saw good to shelter Satan's the distance. In the number of the EARTHEN diabolical designs. Instead of the drug tak- VESSEL which was given to me, was an acing the effect which he had intended, it result. count of a poor woman, who was confined in ed in excessive vomiting; which continued all an asylum for years ; her only cry during the through that night, and the whole of the fol- whole time being—'lost! lost ! lost! This lowing day.

same poor woman afterwards died a triumA short time after this circumstance took phant death. I have no doubt some of my place, I was tempted to destroy my two young. readers will remember the circumstance. (See est children; so malicious was Satan that he EARTIEN VESSEL. Vol. VI. March Number.) had not succeeded in making me bring my After reading this narrative, my feeble faith own life to an end. I actually proceeded to was strengthened ; and soon afterwards, I their room

for that purpose;' but while went to hear Mr. Mason, at Knowl Hill, when watching their innocent slumber, maternal I again prayed the Lord, that if it was his affection returned to my breast, and I was so blessed will, he would bring my soul out of ashamed of my inhuman design, that I again prison, and renew the hope, which had just sought my chamber. My children at this been kindled in my soul. Mr. M. preached time had such a dread of me, that they kept from Heb. xiii. 2- ‘Looking unto Jesus." from my presence as much as possible, and I returned home, with my burden still weigh. they would rather have gone almost anywhere, ing me down. Soon afterwards I heard Mr. than come into my chamber. Even when I M. again at Marlow, from Heb. xii. 2, had far recovered in health, and was compa- choosing rather to suffer affliction with the tively harmless, their fear still held them at a people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of distance from me.

sin for a season.' A short time after this, the When I began to come to myself, I once Ixvi of Isaiah, 13th verse, 'As one whom his more sought the throne of grace, to which I mother comforteth, so will I comfort you, yea, had not found access for many months before. and ye shall be comforted,' was sent as a heaThen, the heavens appeared as brass ; nor ling balm to my wounded cast down soul; and could I obtain any answer, either from them from this time, I date the restoration of my or the means of grace. After a few weeks in spiritual liberty, which has since then contense suffering in mind, I was invited by a tinued uninterrupted for seven years. kind friend to attend a lecture, given by Mr. I have now given a very brief, but faithful B. Mason, of Knowl Hill, at her residence. history, of the merciful dealings of God, toWhile on the way, I entreated the dear Lord wards me; and if it should contribute, by the to send me some comfort by this stranger, help of the ever-blessed Spirit, to the comfort whom I was about to hear. Ăs I entered the of only one of God's dear tried children, my house, those two beautiful lines were sent as object in writing it will be fully accomplished; a comfort to my soul

but unto God alone be all the glory. - I only design,

'A debtor to mercy alone, Thy dross to consume, and thy gold to refine.'

Of covenant mercy 1 sing : I sat in one corner of the apartment, alone;

Nor fear with thy righteousness on, hoping that I should be unobserved by all.

My person and offering to bring. Mr. Mason began the service, by giving out

Your's in the bonds of Christian love, the 459th hymn, of Rippon's selection:

A SINXER SAVED BY GRACE. • Zion, afflicted with wave upon wave;

Marlow, August 11th, 1858. Whom no man can comfort, whom 10

(To be Continued.) man can save.'

When Christ speaketh, then we should be In his prayer, he entreated the Lord, that if all attention, and mark well every word; for there was one poor soul there present, whose God the Father himself saith, "Him shall ye spirit was fast bound in the prison of spiritual hear :' as if he should say, what he teacheth alfiction, to release it speedily. That there you, take good heed thereunto, for I will mainwas such a poor soul among that number, in tain what he saith, or I will be no God. But the condition of which he spoke, the writer of the devil stirreth up other thoughts in the this little narrative well knows; and also, heart; he stoppeth the ears, so that the great. how really suitably his language was to my est number forget Christ and his word, and then, desponding spirit; although the preacher trouble themselves with vain and unprofitable knew not in the least that I was there. things, to the end they may not believe and This little incident will serve to shew, how be saved. God in his wisdom, sometimes, nay often, Therefore he must cause Moses to talk with when the speaker puts his whole trust in him, us; he that will ask, what have ye done ? so directs the phraseology of the minister, Against him, indeed, we might well stop our as to apply to the particular cases of the af- lears. Our doctor and schoolmaster shall be flicted ones present.

only our blessed Saviour Christ Jesus.-Luther.

A BRIEF SKETCH OF THE

he gives is sufficient, but none to spare. He LIFE OF MR JOHN SMITH.

will not have his grace wasted; thus he teaches us our daily, hourly and constant dependance

upon him, that we may know that man doth (Concluded from page 222.)

not live by bread alone, but by every word

which proceedeth out of the mouth of God, He frequently used to say, 'I know that I'doth man live.' These among many others deserve bell, but I do not think the Lord were some of his choice sayings, to me they will let me go there. It is not the fear of were gems of thoughts worth treasuring, and I hell that gives me pain, but the fear of sin- trust the preciousness of them will ever remain ning.' Jesus was the Alpha and Omega of in the casket of my heart and memory as long his life and conversation. One of his favour- as it shall please my Heavenly Father to ite hymns were those seraphic lines composed spare me, by the immortal Dr. Watts on the characters Though possessing comfortable means, he of Christ borrowed from inanimate things in lived on principles of the strictest economy; Scripture, recorded in the 146th Hymn in his at times seeming to debar himself of those first book :

things that were necessary, lest he should be Go worship at Immanuel's feet, found in any way pampering to his flesh. See in his face what wonders meet!

He was a man that had been deeply exercised Earth is too narrow to express

both by domestic trials, and by the spiritual His worth, his glory, or his grace.

adversary of souls; and though he had no

children of his own, yet he was painfully con. Is he a way ? he leads to God,

cerned about two of his relatives, a mother The path is drawn in lines of blood ! and a daughter; the former lost her charac. There would I walk with hope and zeal, ter, and lived on the wages of sin; the latter, Till I arrive at Sion's hill.

over whom he exercised the office of guar. Oh, let me climb those higher skies dian, till at length contrary to her uncle's

Where storms and darkness never rise, wish, and in opposition to his repeated remon. There he displays his powers abroad,

strances, she renounced the wholsome and And shines and reigns the incarnate God. kindly Christian counsels he had given her Nor earth, nor seas, nor sun, nor stars,

and entered a Roman Catholic convent in

which she remains to this day. Nor heaven, his full resemblance bears; His beauties we can never trace

For the last nine years of his life Mr. Smith Till we behold him face to face.

had been a widower, he reminds me (said a

brother Missionary to me on one occassion, Mr. Smith had enjoyed many sweet and bless- of one of the ancient prophets ; his biblical ed manifestations of the divine presence, and knowledge was most profound, and there was though I do not put confidence in what some a dignity of mien in his conduct and manner men calló visious, yet he has related things of speaking which attracted his hearers, and to me, and others which he has seen and was sure to leave behind a deep and solemn heard, the truth of which I dare not call into impression.' question. He has frequently told me and his The little property that he had accumulat. friends, that on one occasion he saw a visible ed by dint of honest industry, economy, and appearance or representation of our Lord on perseverance he did not squander away; but the cross, similar to that recorded in the life so bequeathed it, that his poor relatives who of Colonel Gardner, which lasted for twelve in God's providence might survive him, should minutes. If I remember rightly, on the participate in the benefit of it at his death. morning he saw the vision, which came on Before his death he had a presentiment that him quite unexpectedly, he had been sorely he should die on the 18th of August, instead tried by an infernal suggestion of the wicked of which, he died on the 10th, and his mor. one to this effect, Which of the sacred Three tal remains were deposited in one of the comin unity are you going to pray to, the Father, partments of the eastern catacomb, at Nun. Son, or Holy Ghost? However, the Holy head Hill Cemetey, on the 18th. At the Ghost graciously satisfied him on that point, catacomb, Mr. James Wells delivered a and taught him the truth,' that he who hon- funeral oration to the mourners and specoreth the Son, honoreth the Father,' and tators who had congregated on the steps leadsealed the same truth very blessedly home to ing down to the catacomb, and spoke in a very his heart, so that from this time, he never dare decided and clear manner, relative to Mr. afterwards call into question the Deity of Smith’s religious sentiments, and of the hope Jesus Christ.

he had in his death. He was 71 years of age. Though he had attained a vast amount of the compartment which contains the coffin is knowledge of divine things, and had even closed with a marble tablet, which has on it come to visions and revelations of the Lord; an inscription to the effect that his only hope he did not live upon past experiences. He was in the blood and righteousness of Jesus often reviewed the past as illustrative of God's Christ, and that it is by grace ye are saved. goodness towards him. *Past experiences, Ephesians ii. 5. and the grace of yesterday will not satisfy me Hoping that the perusal of the foregoing to day. We want present help, renewed pages may be interesting to some of the chilgrace, renewed favours, renewing of the aren of ihe Lord's dear family, I remain, Spirit, fresh assurances, fresh applications of your's affectionately in the Lord, the blood, and fresh tokens of divine love.

H, S.S. God will have us value his Christ, the grace London, August 27th, 1858.

EXCELLENT TIDINGS FROM EXETER.

Letters to the Editor of The Earthon Vessel." MR. EDITOB—The work of the Lord is At last the happy and long sought period still prospering with us; we have built a arrived, irreversibly fixed by our covenant vestry and a baptistry; and language cannot God, that this elected, redeemed, justified and express the gratitude we feel to our ever quickened vessel of mercy should fully receive faithful, gracious God, for the continuance of the spirit of adoption, and cry, my Father ! the rich and copious effusions of his blessed my Lord! my Saviour! Never shall I forget Spirit, as realized and enjoyed in our midst, when he took his Bible, and showed me where both under the ministry of our esteemed he was reading-how he was sitting-and the brother Turner, and also at our prayer meet- manner of God's realizing in his soul a sense ings. Since Mr. Turner came amongst us, of pardon, through peace-speaking blood : our church and congregation have increased with tears of gratitude streaming over our nearly treble in numbers; we had baptising faces, we adored our condescending Lord on Lord's day evening, August 29, for the for the great things he had done for our first time, in our new baptistry; after an ap- brother, whereof, all the Lord's living family, propriate and affectionate discourse delivered who have had a sip of the same brooks with by our pastor, from Acts viii. 37; five be us, will be glad when they read this. The lievers were immersed; after an address to Lord having broke bis bonda--opened the the audience, the service concluded by sing- prison door and brought him out, proclaimed ing

liberty to his captive soul, healed his wounds, Crown him Lord of all.'

bound up his broken spirit, sealed divine parUnder the sermon, two young persons were like a river, and caused him to go forth in

don upon his heart, extended peace to him powerfully wrought upon in their hearts; and the Lord's work is still deepening within the dances of them that make merry;' enthem, which we are fully persuaded will end abling him to joy in God, through our Lord in true conversion to God. Some others who Jesus Christ, by whom he had received the were halting between two opinions, were

forgiveness of all his sins. We were able to brought to see and feel the necessity of attend walk together in unbroken fellowship, until ing to the ordinance, and will shortly be he fell asleep in Jesus. baptized. On the day following, we had a be his bearers, and consigned to me bis in,

Conscious of his death, he wrote who should tea meeting, when brethren Thorogood, Lee, dresses, like the silver trumpet, all of a piece; not this a brand plucked out of the fire ?' Williams, Sercome and Ashby, delivered ad- / terment, and the preaching of his funeral

sermon, from a text of his own choosing—'Is no jarring string, no discordant note: 'sound

Zech. iii. 2. in doctrine ; sweet in experience; and truly practical in their remarks. The Lord was

Alas! my brother, was the cry of my heart; for very precious to us and much of his presence spirituality of mind, humility, honesty, sincewas realised in our midst. Glory to God for rity, kindness and real brotherly love, were the his lovingkindness manifested to our despised fell the day he died.

elements of his soul: we may say, a great man Zoar. We beg an interest in the prayers of our dear brethren, praying the abundant after he was set at liberty, and is full of Godly

His letter was written to his wife's mother, blessing of Israel's Triune God to rest upon sincerity, child-like simplicity, breathing, the you, and your labours of love.

sweet experience of the beaven-born disciples Exeter, Septr. 22, 1858. W. SHEPHERD.

of Jesus, and will (with the Lord's blessing,)

bring many of the heirs of salvation back to DEAR EDITOR-I forward you a letter of the time and place, where and when, the Lord our dear brother Moysey, who departed this spake liberty and peace into their souls. life 'to be with Christ, which is infinitely Be so kind as to publish his letter in the better,' (September 26th, 1858,) after ten years' | VESSEL, that he, being dead, may yet speak of severe soul exercise, under the terrific to the living in Jerusalem. thunderings of Sinai, which made him, many brother in the bonds of love and blood, times, choose death rather than life. I witnessed

ZACHARIAH TURNER. in him the dreadful effects of sin, guilt, condem. nation, and a certain fearful looking for of

Exeter, September 26th, 1858. fiery indignation of the Lord to consume him. The Almighty's arrows stuck fast in his soul, DEAR MOTHER-Solomon says, 'whatsothe poison thereof drank up his spirits, and ever thy hand findeth to do, do it with all thy the earnest of damnation established in his might-redeeming the time,' &c. These soul by the spirit of judgment, and burning, words were applied with some degree of power compelled him, in the anguish of his distress to my mind, just as I was thinking about ed mind to cry, God be merciful to me a sin. writing you. May the Lord direct me to ner.' I prayed with and for him, and could something that may tend to comfort you, if sympathize with him in his distress, having you are cast down, as I fear about Robert, if passed through the same sort of furnace, only you have not yet heard from him. The Lord the Lord heated it much hotter for me, than is not slack concerning his promise-all thy he did for him.

children shall be taught of the Lord and

From your

great shall be the peace of thy children;' and The day after I received my bounty money, now I would desire to put you in remem- these words were sweetly dropped into my brance thereof, it may be a consolation to you soul, .cast not away your confidence, which to reflect on it at this moment; and you well hath great recompense of reward;' and, al, know, if dear Robert is taught of the Lord, though I have not that enjoyment I could all is well with him; and if you never see his wish, yet I am blest with a grent degree of face again in this world, you will meet again confidence in him, and at times say with Job, where parting is known no more: may this though he slay me yet will I trust in him.' blessed hope be your solace, not only in this, Oh, for grace to walk more humble, prayerful but in every other trial, which the Lord in his and watchful before God; it is sin that sepawisdom shall see fit to lay upon you. I know rates the soul from felt communion and fellox. it will gladden your heart to hear that the ship with God, and yet it should be a means Lord has met with me, and blessed me with of driving us to him again-to wash us in a sense of his pardoning love, and a sweet that 'fountain which is open for sin and unassurance of interest in, and union with, cleanness.' Christ; so that I could say feelingly– he is I felt much obliged for your kind letter, it mine and I am his.' I cannot now describe drew tears from my eyes at the time, and now my feelings under this blessed visit; but this I trust the Lord has answered your prayer, I can say—I know it was the Lord's work and shined into my soul, and given me a little unsought for by me at the time, though I now of that peace that passeth understanding.' believe I have been seeking the Lord, sorrow. And now let us rejoice together, and bless ing, for many years; and now, blessings on and praise his name for all his mercies towards him who alone can save, I have found him, us, unworthy as we are. I have just received or rather, am found of "him whom my soul a sweet and instructive letter from my dear loveth ;' and I can say, though the vision has brother and companion in tribulation, but tarried long, it is well worth waiting for, not- now a partaker of my joy, (Mr. F.), I find withstanding all my base backslidings, ex- he is, himself, still in the furnace, but I ternal, as well as internal-he hath fulfilled believe he will come forth like gold, seven his promise, to the joy and rejoicing of my times purified;' the Lord trieth the righsoul. 'I will heal their backslidings, and í teous. I hope you will excuse mistakes ; somewill love them freely for mine anger is turned times matter comes so fast; at others, I have to away from him.' This blessed 'him’ I humbly consider my words, for fear of writing what conceive to mean Christ himself, as the head was not true, as regards myself; but the Lord and representative of his church; it is only knoweth the heart, and may he, in kindness as God the Father views us in him, that he and mercy, lead, guide and keep me in that can be well pleased with such hell-deserving way that is right in his sight, for his own sinners as we are; who are black as the name sake. Amen. tents of Kedar,' in ourselves, but comely with Please to remember me to Mr. Filt, and all the comeliness he has put upon us. Oh! may Christian friends, whom I love in the truth; the hope of such a blessed union ever keep us tell our dear old pastor, that one of his ram. humble, prayerful and watchful : I can truly bling, runaway children, is, at last, brought say, that a sight of Jesus, and interest in him, to stand still and see thé salvation of the felt and enjoyed in the soul, is the only thing Lord,' and though here, in a dark place, the worth living for in this world; though I Lord' has been my teacher and guide, and would desire not to be unmindful of the great brought me out of an horrible pit, and set mercies bestowed upon me in a way of provi- my feet upon the rock, and established my dence ; some of these, though not my chief goings; put a new song in my mouth, even good, lay very near my heart, and I hope and praise unto the Lord." trust the Lord will spare them to me, and me to them a little longer.

I would remark that so far from the doc. JAMES'S ENQUIRY ANSWERED. trines of grace leading to carelessness about others, it has had quite a contrary effect upon [Besides the following, we have other answers me; when under its blessed influence, the to give.-Ed.] poor narrow-minded bigot (as the children of God are sometimes called, and as I believe of this month's (October) VESSEL, an Enquiry

MR. EDITOR-THERE is, on the 21th page I was called,) pours out his soul to God, for by a Correspondent with the signature of all who are near and dear to him, and could James;" he asks—that if there is (be) no offer pray, if it was the will of God, that all of them in the gospel to all men—and all men hare it might be brought to know him, whom to not in their power to receive it—is not the know is life eternal.'

You must not conclnde from what I have message, (command) preach the gospel to written, that I am in full enjoyment of this every creature, a tantalizing one ?? blessed visit from my Jesus. No, I to my own in the gospel to all men or not; or, whether

Now, Mr. Editor, whether there be an offer sad place return, in a measure, and Satan all men have power to receive it or not; I do tempts me to believe it was all a delusion, or I could not be so cold and dead, but he is a be tantalizing. But let me explain what tan:

not see how, in either case, the message can liar; and God is faithful who hath promised, talization is. The subject of tantalization is

where he bath begun the good work, he will derived from an ancient Asiatic fable. Namely, carry on, and perfect it;' and I believe he that one of the kings of Lydia, for some crime, hath begun the work in my soul.

was cast into Tartarus, and placed by the side

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