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mies of my own house, which are many. They are lively and they are strong." ―This evening, having given way to a desire for retiring after tea, I was favoured with a fresh and precious feeling of my own incapacity to withstand them; and I trust, in some degree, humbled under it. May I be favoured to keep in this safe habitation! I was afresh convinced, that when the mind is kept in a quiet, humble state, even our outward affairs may be conducted to much more satisfaction.

10th Mo. 1st. My mind was humbled, and in degree comforted this morning, in reading the fore part of the 119th psalm. How can those who plead for sin, term of life, get over the thankful. declaration of the royal psalmist, verses 1st, 2d, and 3d: "Blessed are the undefiled in the way, who walk in the law of the Lord. Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with the whole heart. They also do no iniquity, they walk in his ways." Though I record these expressions, I have to acknowledge that poverty and weakness seem almost continually my allotment; yet not without a desire at times to be quickened and strenthened, if the Lord sees meet; but may I not start aside in the day of probation!

a Ps. xxxviii. 19.

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12th Mo. 5th. This day an account was received of the decease of dear William Wright, of Cork; on hearing which my mind was affected and humbled, under the consideration of the loss sustained to the society, in the removal of this young man ; yet accompanied with a full persuasion, that He who doeth all things well, can send forth more labourers into his vineyard. In both meetings my mind was so beset with wanderings, to which I too much yielded, that it seemed almost impossible to get it fixed; yet towards the close of the afternoon meeting, I was a little comforted in the remembrance of the declaration made to Paul: "My grace is sufficient for thee."

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6th. "Lord, save me," or I perish.

2d Month, 6th, 1814.

I have of late, in general, felt so poor and weak, and so stripped of any thing good, that I have, at times, felt as if I was almost ready to fall a prey to the devourer. In the forenoon meeting to-day, I was favoured with a desire still to be enabled to trust in Him, who has all power in his hands; and a dear friend being in town, was concerned in both meetings, to en

a 2 Cor. xii. 9.

b Matt. xiv. 30.

courage those present to continue in a dependant, watchful, yet wrestling state; and in the family this evening, several young persons being present, he was led to speak in a most inviting and encouraging manner to them. His visit brought to my remembrance the Apostle Paul being met by some brethren, on his trying journey towards Rome, "whom, when Paul saw, he thanked God and took courage."

8th. In the meeting for worship this morning, I was a little humbled, and at the same time consoled, in the remembrance of the experience of the Apostle Paul: "I know that in me, that is, in my flesh, dwelleth no good thing; for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good, 1 find not." I find then` a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me." May I be so fully sensible hereof in my own experience, as availingly to cry out with him: 66 Oh, wretched man that I am, who shall deliver me from the body of this death!"

In the meeting for discipline, I was favoured with some little feeling of tenderness and thankfulness; and having walked to Springfield in the evening, with a dear friend, after supper he

a Acts xxviii. 15.

b Rom. vii. 18, 21, 24.

was concerned to encourage those present to a patient, humble waiting and dependance, on the Great Source of all-sufficient help, in full dedication and devotedness of soul to all his rejoicings. I think I may truly say, that the earnest desire of my soul was at the time, and now is, that I may be favoured thus to dwell; but oh! the difficulty of keeping here!

11th. A Friend sat with us this forenoon, in the course of a visit to the families of Friends here. She had to allude, in rather an encouraging manner, to the growth and progress of the most weighty and valuable grain, wheat; which after being sown and making some progress, even so as to exhibit a promising greenness, has to endure the pinching, nipping blasts of winter, accompanied perhaps by severe frost and snow; yet it is sometimes reckoned that productive harvests succeed severe winters; to which she compared the progress of the divine seed or principle in the heart.

3d Mo. 23d. In our silent meeting this morning, I was favoured with some aspirations, after a state of true humility and dependance.

31st. Being in Cork, and having several matters to attend to, I almost gave up getting

to the week-day meeting; but by a little exertion, managed to get there, and was thankful for having done so, being favoured with some small degree of that contriting influence, which is beyond words.

4th Mo. 30th. The yearly meeting in Dublin ended. In the various sittings thereof, we were favoured with much weighty communication, in the line of ministry; and most of the sittings were solid, satisfactory seasons; yet I found it very difficult to keep my mind rightly centered. We had the company of S. Grillet, of NewYork, who had just returned from a visit to the Continent, and of several ministers from England.

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5th Mo. 1st. The meetings this day were solid seasons; and at an opportunity in the evening, my mind was much humbled; Oh! might I be but favoured to dwell here, in the lowly valley of humiliation!

31st. On waking this morning, and also sitting in silence before I left my room, I felt strong desires for preservation; yet such is the frailty of nature, that, before breakfast time, I gave way to displeasure, against a person who I thought had used me unhandsomely; and I