11th. An acknowledgment seems due for un merited assistance, in throwing off the burden of some feelings which have at times attended,, towards an individual under deep trials of various sorts. At my brother's request or proposition, I called on her with him this evening, to mention a matter which we had seen in her family; and with some difficulty we obtained an interview, she not being very well. While together, my mind became solidly impressed with a desire to address her; but a fear attended of attempting it without sufficient clearness, or its being really required. As I was fearful to move, and yet also afraid to miss such an opportunity, my mind was brought into some degree of anxiety about it; but being favoured to feel resigned either to speak or be silent, it appeared best for me to venture on a few expressions, in the simplicity and freedom of friendship, which appeared to be agreeably received; and I came away much relieved..

12th. I set out this morning, in a heavy fog,. to go to Lismore, but it gradually cleared away; and when I got to the top of the hill beyond two mile bridge, the sun shone in full lustre; and I think I never witnessed a more delightful morning. The scene altogether was. such as awakened emotions of the most gratifying

kind; and I was favoured to lift up my heart towards that great and good Being who governs all things. Not long afterwards, on the road, I was again favoured to taste of the sweet incomes of his love, in a manner that bowed down my soul in humility before Him. O how unworthy am I of such favours!

15th. In an appointed meeting in this place, the friend was engaged in solemn supplication, and afterwards in close and searching testimony; under which I was favoured with some tender feelings; yet such is my weakness, that a few hours afterwards I gave way to a considerable degree of warmth of temper and expression, towards a person who had used me unhandsomely; and I was led into a state of mind far from that wisdom which is from above; but have still cause of thankfulness that I did not afterwards feel easy or comfortable under it; and on seriously looking at the subject, I concluded it would be right for me to go and inform him how I felt, but not meeting with him at home, I am desirous that the feeling may be continued or renewed, and that I may have resolution to go again and do the subject justice, however humiliating.

24th. A dull and trying day. Trying dif

ficulties seem to impend outwardly, and there seemed hardly strength to collect the perplexed and wandering mind, so as to look rightly, much less flee to the city of refuge; until near the close of the evening meeting, when some little degree of solid feeling and tenderness was experienced in the recollection of the expression: "Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory, with exceeding joy; to the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and for ever, Amen."a

25th. How can any person who has attended to the motions of good and evil in his own mind, harbour the idea that there is any overruling, absolute power governing our actions, in consequence of a previous decree or predestination? Is it not clearly evident to every thoughtful person, who has not, by previous obstinacy and rebellion, quenched the motion of the Holy Spirit of Grace, in the secret of his heart, that when temptation to evil is presented, there is, as it were, a rising of something in the mind against it, some doubt, at least, of the propriety of joining in with the suggestion; if

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not a clear conviction that it ought to be avoided and withstood; and if this Divine witness against sin hath been joined with, in its first motions, has there not been found a possibility and capability of withstanding the temptation, and in the language of conduct saying: "Get thee behind me, Satan;" according to the declaration of the Apostle: "God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able, but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.” 1 COR. X. 13. Our adversary, however, may well indeed be said to be unwearied. Oh, how does he hunt as "after the precious life!" and while he is allowed any footing; while there is any degree of looking with complacency at the forbidden fruit, any doubt allowed to remain on the mind, whether we might not, this once, venture to taste, even in a limited and cautious way, the darling gratification, he continues to follow us, again and again watching to present it to our imaginations, perhaps in fresh colours. or newly gilded, to make it attractive; and if, through unwatchfulness, we suffer ourselves to be allured and caught by his bait, what remorse and self-reproach is the consequence! not the feeling of having been impelled by any irresist

able impulse without us, but that of having. weakly, or perhaps wantonly, thrown away our armour, wilfully played the rebel, and joined ourselves to the enemies of our God, and of our own soul's happiness: "Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God; for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man. But every man is tempted when he is drawn away of his own lusts and en-ticed."

27th. This morning I awoke early, and as I lay in bed my mind turned toward that merciful Being, in whose hands are the issues from death, I witnessed a degree of prostration of soul be-fore him, and desires that my will might be fully crucified, and in all things given up to his will; I was favoured with some view of the boundless mercy of redeeming love, and saw that if I had been preserved from some gross evilsinto which others have fallen, it has not been of myself, but through his mercy, who, "whilst we were yet sinners, died for us, that he might bring us unto God;" and in the feeling, of my own unworthiness, I was enabled, I trust in sincerity, to adopt the language of one formerly: "I am not worthy that thou shouldst come un

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